I am not a high-maintenance girlfriend or wife. Really, I'm not. I don't need jewelry or expensive dinners out or constant attention. I barely wear jewelry and what I wear isn't that fancy. I prefer to cook over eating out because there just aren't that many restaurant meals that are better than what I can make, plus I hate the whole ritual of Dining. It takes too long. And I definitely do not want attention all the time because I am a bit of a loner, or, at least, an introvert. I do just fine on my own.
But.
I want my birthday acknowledged.
I want a present and a fuss on my birthday.
There. I said it.
Is that wrong? Does that make me a bad person?
Primo does a great job on birthdays. He is always so excited about what is doing for me that he gives me my present early. My birthday isn't for a month, but he already gave me a new digital camera for my purse to replace the heavier, bulkier one I've had for five years. You should keep a camera in your purse because when your car gets hit and it's the other guy's fault but you get the ticket because he's a faster talker than you, you can take photos of the cars and the scene and show them to the court, who will waive your ticket, and to your insurance company, who will say, "There is no way you caused that accident" and will go after the guy for the $2,000 in repairs.
The court will also note that nobody has ever brought her own Matchbox cars to re-create the accident (who knew they had their own cars there already?) and they will admire your suit because of course you dressed nicely for court and not in sweatpants with the word "Juicy" across your ass, although perhaps in certain circumstances, that is the attire that would lead to indulgence and the winning of your case.
Calvin was not a birthday guy.
In his defense, he is a bit of the distracted scientist, thinking about relativity and circuits and Big Issues most of the time, but I wanted to be number one in his head.
I never got there. I wonder how things are with his marriage. He married one of my college roommates - a suitemate from our sophomore year. Brenda is the nicest person in the world, but needs a lot of attention. She is not emotionally self sufficient at all, or was not when I knew her well, which was in college and a couple of years after. He did not give me a lot of attention when we were dating. I hope he is giving her the attention she wants.
On a side note, Brenda is also the only person I know of who has lived the nightmare of, "Omigosh I have a 20 page paper on pig iron due tomorrow." Yep. She hadn't read the syllabus and forgot. She spent all night doing that paper and yes, it was on pig iron. This was before the internet, so it was a lot harder to research back then.
In Calvin's defense, he did get me one of the best presents I have ever gotten. For Christmas our second year of dating, he gave me my own jean jacket. Probably to keep me from borrowing his all the time. I still preferred to wear his because it smelled like him and the Polo cologne he wore, a scent that to this day makes me a bit weak kneed. I am not a big perfume/cologne person, but I make an exception for Polo.
I loved that jacket and wore it until it was threadbare. I had the collar turned and wore it some more. I wore it until it was falling apart. Finally, I got rid of it and have regretted it ever since because I have not been able to find a decent replacement jean jacket.
But my birthday.
He didn't do anything for my birthday the first year we were dating. The fact that my birthday was two days after we Did the Deed did not help matters. It also did not help matters that I took my ire out on my friends rather than on him.
The next year, he also did nothing, even though my friends, two weeks ahead of my birthday, were advising him to mark the occasion somehow. I, too, dropped many, many hints, like, "My birthday is coming!"
Birthday arrived.
Nothing.
I got mad at him this time. I had never had a birthday and a boyfriend at the same time and I wanted something special. Not necessarily an expensive present, but recognition. When I was a kid, we didn't have to do chores on our birthday. My mom made a cake and whatever meal we wanted. For one day, the birthday person was the center of attention. My freshman year of college, my mom made a cake and my entire family drove the 200 miles from San Antonio to Houston to deliver the cake and then drove back there the same night. I wanted the boyfriend equivalent of a 400 mile round trip to deliver a cake.
"But birthdays aren't important in my family," he shrugged.
"I don't care," I told him calmly, or maybe snapped. "They're important in mine and just the fact that it's important to me should be reason enough for it to be important to you." I pointed out that he could have folded a piece of paper in half and written "Happy birthday" on it and that would have mollified me somewhat.
I did not point it out in a even, reasoned voice.
Maybe I was a bit immature.
But maybe I was doing it for his future girlfriends/wife. I'm sure Brenda thanks me now.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Thursday, September 30, 2010
In which Calvin, the boyfriend formerly known as R.M., and I - you know
Note that I have changed R.M.'s name to Calvin simply because it is easier to type.
You had to know that two college students who had been dating for a while would be tempted to break any vows of chastity, no matter how good an idea such an intention seemed at the time.
Remember I am the one who told my father, the night we were packing the car to drive to Houston the next day to deliver me to college, after he told me, "Now if you're going to get laid, use protection," that "Dad! You know I don't believe in pre-marital sex!" My dad rolled his eyes and said, "It's going to happen. Don't be stupid about it."
And Calvin was a stoic or something silly like that. So we were sure that we were inviolate.
Yet.
We were also normal college students. What can I say? We held off just fine for the first few months of dating, mostly because of intent but also because our roommates never left our rooms. Rene.
We probably would have broken them sooner if Calvin had not spent the summer out of town working.
I wondered about my freshman year roommate, Gloria. She was a Southern Baptist. I am Catholic. I know many fine Southern Baptists, but anyone who knows anything about S. Baptist theology with respect to Catholicism, at least back in the late 70s and early 80s, knows that there is not a lot of intersection in the beliefs. As in, Southern Baptists, I have been told, think Catholics are all going straight to H-E-L-L, that the Church is the Whore of Babylon, the Pope is the antichrist, blah blah blah.
I don't worry a whole lot about what anti-Catholics think because there's nothing to be done about it now. We'll find out when we're dead, right? If the atheists are right, then whatever. I wasted time going to church. If the Baptists are right, then I guess I won't be shoveling snow any more. But there's no point in arguing with someone about religion and faith. Have you ever changed anyone's mind? I haven't. It's better to avoid the topic altogether.
Although I can talk about religion a little bit with my friend Patricia, who is Baptist. We had to attend a funeral - a Baptist funeral for the wife of a friend. Every time we started another song - and there were many and they were the good songs because Baptists don't play - none of that Marty Haugen Gather BS - I would hold the hymnal up to share with her.
She would give a tiny little shake of her head. Knew the song by heart. After the third time, I whispered, "Do you know all the songs in here?"
She rolled her eyes at me. "Of course," she said.
Patricia also knew just about every verse in the Bible, so arguing with her about chapter and verse was pointless. Baptist vs Catholic on Bible quoting? Baptist wins hands down every time.
Gloria told me anyone who wasn't baptized was going to hell, even people who had never heard of God, which I can say with confidence is not the Official Catholic Line.
That conversation was the last one we had about religion. Actually, it was one of the last conversations we had, period. We were roommates because - we were both blonde.
Yes, that's right. The elaborate roommate-matching process based on the three-page questionnaires we had completed before the school year?
Reduced to, "Hey! Let's make a suite of all blondes!" by the upperclassmen who made the freshman rooming arrangements.
Other than our hair, we had almost nothing in common, except, perhaps, the intention to remain virgins until marriage. Not that Gloria and I ever discussed our sex lives or lack thereof with each other. The closest we came to a conversation about it was that I walked around the room naked after a shower because I knew it bothered her. I am not a modest person, so it didn't bother me at all.
She would get into the shower fully dressed. We would see her clothes come flying over the curtain rod. Then she would finish her shower (after washing her hair with the bar soap because she had run out of shampoo and was using mine and our two suitemates' shampoo, so we started to hide it) and her hand would snake out from behind the shower curtain and grab her nightgown. She would emerge clad in her nightie, then sleep on her wet hair so in the morning, it looked as if she had put her finger in an electrical socket.
I knew, though, that she was facing some struggles because I had heard that she and her boyfriend Tad, a senior, a member of the church group with Gloria, and five inches shorter than she was, had been found in the basement fully clothed but in compromising positions. And I accidentally saw them kissing goodnight once, which was almost enough to make me lose my supper, which might not have been such a bad idea because boy, did I eat freshman year.
I wondered if she and Tad ever surrendered.
I am going to say no just because I do not want that image in my mind.
It would have been very very easy to resist Tad. If you know what I mean. Gloria was not particularly physically attractive and she didn't have a nice personality to make up for it, so it's not like she could do much better. (Yes, I know I am being mean here but the truth hurts. Listen, though. If you had a roommate who thought she should be given part of any care package sent by a roommate's mom but wouldn't share her own goodies, wouldn't you think less of her?)
Unlike Tad, Calvin was a hot hot hottie and he smelled fabulous. To this day, a whiff of Polo makes me swoon. Impossible to resist for long, even though we both were adamant that sex was for marriage and we were going to wait. We were!
Then we spent the summer apart, writing letters and making occasional phone calls. Long distance was expensive back then and I was making just a little over minimum wage as a lifeguard and a swimming teacher. I couldn't afford to talk to him that much and he couldn't afford to call me. He did, however, write really nice letters. I wish I still had them.
When we got back to school, we resumed our habit of late-evening walks and necking.
We were going to wait. Calvin claimed he wanted to wait for moral reasons, which I didn't quite get as he and his family were not churchgoers. I think it was more his desire to be stoic and resist his desires. And that he is just a tiny bit of a control freak, maybe? He and his wife, who was one of my suitemates my sophomore year, did wait (I heard from a third party which is odd because really, who talks about this sort of thing?) until their wedding night. Why on earth would anyone but the two of them know this? But yeah - that was the gossip.
I, however, was counting how long before we could be married. Two more years of college. Five to seven years for a PhD.
I had no interest whatsoever in waiting seven to nine years to consummate this relationship.
I began a campaign of "We're going to be married anyhow so it's OK it's just a timing issue."
That was a hard sale.
I finally convinced him.
It took a couple of months.
And then?
I'd been reading romance novels since I was in eighth grade. In ninth grade, I read "Sweet Savage Love" by Rosemary Rogers.
Let's just say these books give female readers the wrong impression. Not what I expected at all.
Still, I was ready to give it another chance. But guess who was the one who was guilt ridden over the experience?
Not me. I was not the one who had to be talked down from the ledge on this.
Eventually, I convinced him. Although even when I had my own apartment off campus, he never spent an entire night with me. Never.
You had to know that two college students who had been dating for a while would be tempted to break any vows of chastity, no matter how good an idea such an intention seemed at the time.
Remember I am the one who told my father, the night we were packing the car to drive to Houston the next day to deliver me to college, after he told me, "Now if you're going to get laid, use protection," that "Dad! You know I don't believe in pre-marital sex!" My dad rolled his eyes and said, "It's going to happen. Don't be stupid about it."
And Calvin was a stoic or something silly like that. So we were sure that we were inviolate.
Yet.
We were also normal college students. What can I say? We held off just fine for the first few months of dating, mostly because of intent but also because our roommates never left our rooms. Rene.
We probably would have broken them sooner if Calvin had not spent the summer out of town working.
I wondered about my freshman year roommate, Gloria. She was a Southern Baptist. I am Catholic. I know many fine Southern Baptists, but anyone who knows anything about S. Baptist theology with respect to Catholicism, at least back in the late 70s and early 80s, knows that there is not a lot of intersection in the beliefs. As in, Southern Baptists, I have been told, think Catholics are all going straight to H-E-L-L, that the Church is the Whore of Babylon, the Pope is the antichrist, blah blah blah.
I don't worry a whole lot about what anti-Catholics think because there's nothing to be done about it now. We'll find out when we're dead, right? If the atheists are right, then whatever. I wasted time going to church. If the Baptists are right, then I guess I won't be shoveling snow any more. But there's no point in arguing with someone about religion and faith. Have you ever changed anyone's mind? I haven't. It's better to avoid the topic altogether.
Although I can talk about religion a little bit with my friend Patricia, who is Baptist. We had to attend a funeral - a Baptist funeral for the wife of a friend. Every time we started another song - and there were many and they were the good songs because Baptists don't play - none of that Marty Haugen Gather BS - I would hold the hymnal up to share with her.
She would give a tiny little shake of her head. Knew the song by heart. After the third time, I whispered, "Do you know all the songs in here?"
She rolled her eyes at me. "Of course," she said.
Patricia also knew just about every verse in the Bible, so arguing with her about chapter and verse was pointless. Baptist vs Catholic on Bible quoting? Baptist wins hands down every time.
Gloria told me anyone who wasn't baptized was going to hell, even people who had never heard of God, which I can say with confidence is not the Official Catholic Line.
That conversation was the last one we had about religion. Actually, it was one of the last conversations we had, period. We were roommates because - we were both blonde.
Yes, that's right. The elaborate roommate-matching process based on the three-page questionnaires we had completed before the school year?
Reduced to, "Hey! Let's make a suite of all blondes!" by the upperclassmen who made the freshman rooming arrangements.
Other than our hair, we had almost nothing in common, except, perhaps, the intention to remain virgins until marriage. Not that Gloria and I ever discussed our sex lives or lack thereof with each other. The closest we came to a conversation about it was that I walked around the room naked after a shower because I knew it bothered her. I am not a modest person, so it didn't bother me at all.
She would get into the shower fully dressed. We would see her clothes come flying over the curtain rod. Then she would finish her shower (after washing her hair with the bar soap because she had run out of shampoo and was using mine and our two suitemates' shampoo, so we started to hide it) and her hand would snake out from behind the shower curtain and grab her nightgown. She would emerge clad in her nightie, then sleep on her wet hair so in the morning, it looked as if she had put her finger in an electrical socket.
I knew, though, that she was facing some struggles because I had heard that she and her boyfriend Tad, a senior, a member of the church group with Gloria, and five inches shorter than she was, had been found in the basement fully clothed but in compromising positions. And I accidentally saw them kissing goodnight once, which was almost enough to make me lose my supper, which might not have been such a bad idea because boy, did I eat freshman year.
I wondered if she and Tad ever surrendered.
I am going to say no just because I do not want that image in my mind.
It would have been very very easy to resist Tad. If you know what I mean. Gloria was not particularly physically attractive and she didn't have a nice personality to make up for it, so it's not like she could do much better. (Yes, I know I am being mean here but the truth hurts. Listen, though. If you had a roommate who thought she should be given part of any care package sent by a roommate's mom but wouldn't share her own goodies, wouldn't you think less of her?)
Unlike Tad, Calvin was a hot hot hottie and he smelled fabulous. To this day, a whiff of Polo makes me swoon. Impossible to resist for long, even though we both were adamant that sex was for marriage and we were going to wait. We were!
Then we spent the summer apart, writing letters and making occasional phone calls. Long distance was expensive back then and I was making just a little over minimum wage as a lifeguard and a swimming teacher. I couldn't afford to talk to him that much and he couldn't afford to call me. He did, however, write really nice letters. I wish I still had them.
When we got back to school, we resumed our habit of late-evening walks and necking.
We were going to wait. Calvin claimed he wanted to wait for moral reasons, which I didn't quite get as he and his family were not churchgoers. I think it was more his desire to be stoic and resist his desires. And that he is just a tiny bit of a control freak, maybe? He and his wife, who was one of my suitemates my sophomore year, did wait (I heard from a third party which is odd because really, who talks about this sort of thing?) until their wedding night. Why on earth would anyone but the two of them know this? But yeah - that was the gossip.
I, however, was counting how long before we could be married. Two more years of college. Five to seven years for a PhD.
I had no interest whatsoever in waiting seven to nine years to consummate this relationship.
I began a campaign of "We're going to be married anyhow so it's OK it's just a timing issue."
That was a hard sale.
I finally convinced him.
It took a couple of months.
And then?
I'd been reading romance novels since I was in eighth grade. In ninth grade, I read "Sweet Savage Love" by Rosemary Rogers.
Let's just say these books give female readers the wrong impression. Not what I expected at all.
Still, I was ready to give it another chance. But guess who was the one who was guilt ridden over the experience?
Not me. I was not the one who had to be talked down from the ledge on this.
Eventually, I convinced him. Although even when I had my own apartment off campus, he never spent an entire night with me. Never.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
In which Primo tries to keep the peace after the weekly mandatory phone call
Primo: My mom doesn't understand why you are friends with Stephanie yet won't have a relationship with her.
Me: I like Stephanie. She's the only person in your family who has been nice to me from the second I met her.
Primo: My parents say she's not your intellectual equal like my mom is.
Me: Oh good grief. I don't care. Stephanie is nice and we are friends.
Primo: They say she doesn't even have good grammer!
Me: So what? My grandmother said "ain't." Did that make her a bad person? I can look beyond these things, you know.
Primo: My mom wishes you would email her about gardening.
Me: Why can't she email me?
Primo: She says that you're the one who needs to initiate the relationship because you're the one who has rejected them.*
Me: But your mom is the one who wants the relationship.
Primo: I know.
Me: So if she wants it and I don't, isn't the burden on her to email first? You know I would answer her emails.
Primo: She thinks you should start.
Me: I don't want a relationship with your mother.
Primo: But she doesn't have any friends.
Me: That's not my fault and that's not my problem.
* If you do not know why I have rejected Sly and Doris, start reading the archives from the very beginning.
Me: I like Stephanie. She's the only person in your family who has been nice to me from the second I met her.
Primo: My parents say she's not your intellectual equal like my mom is.
Me: Oh good grief. I don't care. Stephanie is nice and we are friends.
Primo: They say she doesn't even have good grammer!
Me: So what? My grandmother said "ain't." Did that make her a bad person? I can look beyond these things, you know.
Primo: My mom wishes you would email her about gardening.
Me: Why can't she email me?
Primo: She says that you're the one who needs to initiate the relationship because you're the one who has rejected them.*
Me: But your mom is the one who wants the relationship.
Primo: I know.
Me: So if she wants it and I don't, isn't the burden on her to email first? You know I would answer her emails.
Primo: She thinks you should start.
Me: I don't want a relationship with your mother.
Primo: But she doesn't have any friends.
Me: That's not my fault and that's not my problem.
* If you do not know why I have rejected Sly and Doris, start reading the archives from the very beginning.
Friday, September 24, 2010
In which Primo gets exasperated with Doris and Sly
Primo: Why do my parents have to be so difficult?
Me: I dunno.
Primo: Jack [his brother] told them that Michael and Maria [Jack and Stephanie's kids] don't want Sly and Doris helping them with their college applications because of all their [Sly and Doris'] negativity.
Me: Yeah? What did your mom and dad say that?
Primo: They don't believe it.
Me: So what's the reason that Michael and Maria aren't asking for help? Have they thought about that?
Primo: And you don't like being around them. But in their eyes, it's all because something is wrong with you and something is wrong with Michael and Maria.
Me: They're not good at identifying the "X" in an equation, are they?
Primo: [big sigh] If I could just stick my finger in your bellybutton, things would be all better.
Me: Go ahead.
Primo: Really?
Me: If it would really solve the problems with your parents, I'll make the sacrifice.
Primo: I wish. It won't. Never mind.
Me: You have another 48 years.
Me: I dunno.
Primo: Jack [his brother] told them that Michael and Maria [Jack and Stephanie's kids] don't want Sly and Doris helping them with their college applications because of all their [Sly and Doris'] negativity.
Me: Yeah? What did your mom and dad say that?
Primo: They don't believe it.
Me: So what's the reason that Michael and Maria aren't asking for help? Have they thought about that?
Primo: And you don't like being around them. But in their eyes, it's all because something is wrong with you and something is wrong with Michael and Maria.
Me: They're not good at identifying the "X" in an equation, are they?
Primo: [big sigh] If I could just stick my finger in your bellybutton, things would be all better.
Me: Go ahead.
Primo: Really?
Me: If it would really solve the problems with your parents, I'll make the sacrifice.
Primo: I wish. It won't. Never mind.
Me: You have another 48 years.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
In which Doris sends us an anniversary present that isn't half bad but don't worry she's still mad at me
I repeat: I am usually grateful for the thought behind any present I get. I don't want to sound like an ingrate. But. With Sly and Doris, there is present escalation - they send us something and they expect something expensive in return.
I would like us to reach detente and disarmament. No presents! None! Please don't expect us to spend $100 on each gift-giving event for you! I am fine with your not sending me a sweatshirt with flowers painted on it. Really.
That said, Doris got it right for the anniversary present she did not need to send. Well, sort of. Witness.
Primo: What's that?
Me: Your mom sent it.
Primo: What is it?
Me: A lemon tree.
Primo: Is that good?
Me: Sure.
Me: I mean, yes.
Me: I mean, if we can keep it alive over the winter. Look at the care instructions.
Primo: What do you mean?
Me: It's a tropical plant.
Primo: It's supposed to be indoors?
Me: Yes. And we really don't have anywhere in the house that will be warm enough and get enough sun.
Primo: I guess it can't stay outside.
Me: Nope.
Me: So I hope it survives winter.
Primo: But you like it enough that you'll write a thank you note?*
Me: Yes. Even if I didn't like it, I would write a note. I was raised right.
A note will not be enough to placate Doris, who responded to Primo's email yesterday suggesting dates for him to visit by noting how "bitter" she is that I continue to reject a relationship with her.
Me: What overtures does your mom say I am rejecting?
Primo: I dunno.
Me: Does she call me? No. Does she email me? No.
What she does is when my sister in law Stephanie mentions that she spoke to me is ask if Stephanie and I speak often (no - three times a year, with emails in between, plus facebook) and then tell Stephanie that she is always "reaching out" to me but I am not receptive.
Me: What would an ideal relationship with me look like to your mom?
Primo: I don't know.
Me: Is there anything I could do to make her and your dad like me?
Primo: Probably not.
Me: Did they like Isabel [Primo's first wife]?
Primo: Nope.
Me: And they trash talk their other daughters in law.
Primo: Yep.
Me: So I might as well please myself.
* Why is it that I am the one who is supposed to write the note even though they are his parents? Not that Primo cares, but how much do you want to bet that if he wrote the note, Doris would complain that I had not said anything?
I would like us to reach detente and disarmament. No presents! None! Please don't expect us to spend $100 on each gift-giving event for you! I am fine with your not sending me a sweatshirt with flowers painted on it. Really.
That said, Doris got it right for the anniversary present she did not need to send. Well, sort of. Witness.
Primo: What's that?
Me: Your mom sent it.
Primo: What is it?
Me: A lemon tree.
Primo: Is that good?
Me: Sure.
Me: I mean, yes.
Me: I mean, if we can keep it alive over the winter. Look at the care instructions.
Primo: What do you mean?
Me: It's a tropical plant.
Primo: It's supposed to be indoors?
Me: Yes. And we really don't have anywhere in the house that will be warm enough and get enough sun.
Primo: I guess it can't stay outside.
Me: Nope.
Me: So I hope it survives winter.
Primo: But you like it enough that you'll write a thank you note?*
Me: Yes. Even if I didn't like it, I would write a note. I was raised right.
A note will not be enough to placate Doris, who responded to Primo's email yesterday suggesting dates for him to visit by noting how "bitter" she is that I continue to reject a relationship with her.
Me: What overtures does your mom say I am rejecting?
Primo: I dunno.
Me: Does she call me? No. Does she email me? No.
What she does is when my sister in law Stephanie mentions that she spoke to me is ask if Stephanie and I speak often (no - three times a year, with emails in between, plus facebook) and then tell Stephanie that she is always "reaching out" to me but I am not receptive.
Me: What would an ideal relationship with me look like to your mom?
Primo: I don't know.
Me: Is there anything I could do to make her and your dad like me?
Primo: Probably not.
Me: Did they like Isabel [Primo's first wife]?
Primo: Nope.
Me: And they trash talk their other daughters in law.
Primo: Yep.
Me: So I might as well please myself.
* Why is it that I am the one who is supposed to write the note even though they are his parents? Not that Primo cares, but how much do you want to bet that if he wrote the note, Doris would complain that I had not said anything?
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
In which Doris sends us an anniversary card and threatens to send us a present
I know. I should not complain about anyone sending us presents. It is tacky, tacky, tacky to bitch about receiving gifts. Except if you have read this blog from the very beginning, you know there is a price to be paid for what we get; that is, we are expected to reciprocate with presents that are equally expensive. This might not be so bad if the presents we received were not so cheap and ugly and tasteless, but Doris does not send us anything we would ever want.
Yesterday, Primo showed me the anniversary card his mother had sent. It was one of those fulsomely sentimental cards that I abhor, but tomato, tomahto, etc. I got Primo a card that showed two penguins on front and said "Happy anniversary to us" on the inside. Except of course the penguins were (between Primo and me) a reference to that Monty Python skit and the message I wrote was that he still had to wait 48 years to mess with my bellybutton. Sweetly sentimental I am not.
He showed me the card. I glanced at it and acknowledged that it was indeed nice of his mother to send it.
"Why don't I put this here on the kitchen counter with the card you gave me so you can see it all the time?" Primo suggested.
"Oh honey, no. It needs to be in your office so you can have the pleasure!" I answered.
"Maybe on your dresser?" he asked.
"Sweetness, you really deserve to have a constant reminder of your parents' affection next to you! I can't be selfish and keep it all to myself!"
I won.
The card disappeared into his office upstairs, never to be seen again.
He spoke to his parents yesterday because he didn't call on Sunday, his usual We'll Feel Abandoned if You Don't Talk to Us Every Week call.
On the card, Doris had written than she was not sending us an anniversary gift because she had not been inspired and I must agree that the pressed board Chinese nesting tables with the hummingbirds and hibiscus painted on them that she sent us last year were indeed inspired. Satan is at work, even today.
But when Primo spoke to her yesterday, she said that she had found something after all and we would be getting something soon.
So.
What can top Chinese pressed board nesting tables with hummingbirds and hibiscus, a framed photo of Sly and Doris, and a cast iron cat?
We will find out soon.
Yesterday, Primo showed me the anniversary card his mother had sent. It was one of those fulsomely sentimental cards that I abhor, but tomato, tomahto, etc. I got Primo a card that showed two penguins on front and said "Happy anniversary to us" on the inside. Except of course the penguins were (between Primo and me) a reference to that Monty Python skit and the message I wrote was that he still had to wait 48 years to mess with my bellybutton. Sweetly sentimental I am not.
He showed me the card. I glanced at it and acknowledged that it was indeed nice of his mother to send it.
"Why don't I put this here on the kitchen counter with the card you gave me so you can see it all the time?" Primo suggested.
"Oh honey, no. It needs to be in your office so you can have the pleasure!" I answered.
"Maybe on your dresser?" he asked.
"Sweetness, you really deserve to have a constant reminder of your parents' affection next to you! I can't be selfish and keep it all to myself!"
I won.
The card disappeared into his office upstairs, never to be seen again.
He spoke to his parents yesterday because he didn't call on Sunday, his usual We'll Feel Abandoned if You Don't Talk to Us Every Week call.
On the card, Doris had written than she was not sending us an anniversary gift because she had not been inspired and I must agree that the pressed board Chinese nesting tables with the hummingbirds and hibiscus painted on them that she sent us last year were indeed inspired. Satan is at work, even today.
But when Primo spoke to her yesterday, she said that she had found something after all and we would be getting something soon.
So.
What can top Chinese pressed board nesting tables with hummingbirds and hibiscus, a framed photo of Sly and Doris, and a cast iron cat?
We will find out soon.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
In which I tell Primo I have no interest in talking to his mother on the phone
It's our anniversary. Two years. Still not at the finger in the bellybutton stage. Primo has to wait until our 50th anniversary for that, although he had a chance a few months ago when I had told him I would go out to the bar with him but I really didn't want to go (I never want to go out to a loud bar where people are drinking), so I offered a finger in the bellybutton in exchange for not having to go out.
He didn't take it.
Too bad.
Now he has to wait 48 more years.
The subject of his parents came up. Just what I want to think about on our anniversary when we are still in our PJs at 11 a.m. and eating this chocolate-ricotta cheese-chocolate cookie dessert for breakfast before Primo makes omelettes with the chorizo-cheese-pepper thingy leftovers from supper at a Mexican restaurant last night.
It came up because I pointed out an article in the Sunday USA Weekend magazine, which sets the standard for responsible journalism. All the accurate, important news.
The article was about how to stay healthy and the last piece of advice was to keep a positive attitude, which is something Sly and Doris know nothing of, as they seek opportunities to whine and be miserable.
My great aunt watched her first husband crash his plane into the ground in front of her and their two daughters. She re-married and had four more kids and lived a happy life. Not a bitter woman. Another great-aunt lost her husband to leukemia when he was 37. He left her with eight children, one of whom died of cancer two years later. Not a bitter woman.
Point is that you decide how you are going to react to things and if you want to be miserable, you can be miserable. If you want to be happy, you can be happy.
ANYHOW.
I showed the story to Primo, who pointed out that his parents were different, that it wasn't their fault, that they weren't responsible and they had no choice but to miserable. Yes, he was channeling his mom and dad.
Then he noted that if his dad dies before his mom does that Doris will probably want to live with us and he will feel responsible for her.
I reminded him that his wedding present to me was the promise that they would NEVER live with us. NEVER.
Well, close to us, then, he said. There is an assisted living place two blocks from us.
Uh huh. If Doris wants to be in assisted living near us, whatever. That does not mean we bring her over to our house frequently or that we(=I) take her to the doctor or shopping.
"I don't think you know how nice my mom is," Primo said.
OK. Maybe I don't, as I have not seen evidence of that.
I still don't want her living in my house, taking my bedroom because she can't take stairs, telling me over and over how she can't help anymore and how bad she feels about that and could we move the TV into the living room (from the basement) and how Primo is her ONLY JOY.
"I don't even want my mom living with us and we both like and love my mom," I pointed out. "I don't want anyone but us living in this house."
Primo sighed. "I guess I need to call." [His mandatory weekly phone call or else they feel abandoned.]
I shrugged. "If that's what you want to do on your anniversary - submit to the parental guilt complex."
"They'll want to wish us a happy anniversary," he said.
Oh sure. Because they were so thrilled with his decision to marry me.
"Whatever."
"What if my mom wants to tell you happy anniversary herself?" he asked.
"Tell her I'm out."
"I don't want to lie to my mother."
"Fine. When you call, I'll go outside and then you'll be telling the truth."
"You don't even want to talk to my mom for a second?"
"No. I don't. It's my anniversary. They already made my wedding stressful. I don't have to let them ruin my anniversary."
"My mom says she keeps reaching out to you," he said.
Yes, she also tells that to my sister in law Stephanie - that she reaches out to me all the time and I reject her.
I suppose you could count giving us a framed photograph of themselves as reaching out. Or sending me an email after I wrote a sympathy note after a family death and then complaining that my response to her email was too short.
"Just be nice to my parents," Primo sighs. "It will make life easier for me."
"Fine," I tell him. "If I am driving and I see your dad in the crosswalk, I'll stop the car until he gets to the sidewalk."
"Not what I meant," Primo says.
He didn't take it.
Too bad.
Now he has to wait 48 more years.
The subject of his parents came up. Just what I want to think about on our anniversary when we are still in our PJs at 11 a.m. and eating this chocolate-ricotta cheese-chocolate cookie dessert for breakfast before Primo makes omelettes with the chorizo-cheese-pepper thingy leftovers from supper at a Mexican restaurant last night.
It came up because I pointed out an article in the Sunday USA Weekend magazine, which sets the standard for responsible journalism. All the accurate, important news.
The article was about how to stay healthy and the last piece of advice was to keep a positive attitude, which is something Sly and Doris know nothing of, as they seek opportunities to whine and be miserable.
My great aunt watched her first husband crash his plane into the ground in front of her and their two daughters. She re-married and had four more kids and lived a happy life. Not a bitter woman. Another great-aunt lost her husband to leukemia when he was 37. He left her with eight children, one of whom died of cancer two years later. Not a bitter woman.
Point is that you decide how you are going to react to things and if you want to be miserable, you can be miserable. If you want to be happy, you can be happy.
ANYHOW.
I showed the story to Primo, who pointed out that his parents were different, that it wasn't their fault, that they weren't responsible and they had no choice but to miserable. Yes, he was channeling his mom and dad.
Then he noted that if his dad dies before his mom does that Doris will probably want to live with us and he will feel responsible for her.
I reminded him that his wedding present to me was the promise that they would NEVER live with us. NEVER.
Well, close to us, then, he said. There is an assisted living place two blocks from us.
Uh huh. If Doris wants to be in assisted living near us, whatever. That does not mean we bring her over to our house frequently or that we(=I) take her to the doctor or shopping.
"I don't think you know how nice my mom is," Primo said.
OK. Maybe I don't, as I have not seen evidence of that.
I still don't want her living in my house, taking my bedroom because she can't take stairs, telling me over and over how she can't help anymore and how bad she feels about that and could we move the TV into the living room (from the basement) and how Primo is her ONLY JOY.
"I don't even want my mom living with us and we both like and love my mom," I pointed out. "I don't want anyone but us living in this house."
Primo sighed. "I guess I need to call." [His mandatory weekly phone call or else they feel abandoned.]
I shrugged. "If that's what you want to do on your anniversary - submit to the parental guilt complex."
"They'll want to wish us a happy anniversary," he said.
Oh sure. Because they were so thrilled with his decision to marry me.
"Whatever."
"What if my mom wants to tell you happy anniversary herself?" he asked.
"Tell her I'm out."
"I don't want to lie to my mother."
"Fine. When you call, I'll go outside and then you'll be telling the truth."
"You don't even want to talk to my mom for a second?"
"No. I don't. It's my anniversary. They already made my wedding stressful. I don't have to let them ruin my anniversary."
"My mom says she keeps reaching out to you," he said.
Yes, she also tells that to my sister in law Stephanie - that she reaches out to me all the time and I reject her.
I suppose you could count giving us a framed photograph of themselves as reaching out. Or sending me an email after I wrote a sympathy note after a family death and then complaining that my response to her email was too short.
"Just be nice to my parents," Primo sighs. "It will make life easier for me."
"Fine," I tell him. "If I am driving and I see your dad in the crosswalk, I'll stop the car until he gets to the sidewalk."
"Not what I meant," Primo says.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
In which my college boyfriend tells me he loves me and I don't know what to say back because he got me out of bed (I was skipping statistics)
I have changed R.M.'s name to Calvin because it is easier to type.
I went back to school after Christmas break. I had a boyfriend. I guess. I had won my bet. I had gotten him to kiss me. Was that enough? Or did I want to keep seeing Calvin?
I must have, because we did indeed date.
"Dating" meant going to the movies at the Chemistry lecture hall on Saturday nights for a dollar. Or going dancing with a group of friends, most of whom couldn't have cared less about the liquor we were not legal to buy - we were at the Winchester Club to two step and polka.
Primo thinks country western dancing is dumb, but that is because Primo thinks he cannot dance and has never tried to two step. Primo might have had a better shot at getting laid in college if he had spent more time dancing than drinking. And if he hadn't been obsessed with a crazy (seriously) girl who used him. Just saying.
He will learn to dance this winter, though, when we can't play tennis any more. He promised. We dropped in on the polka class at a festival and he did just fine, as I knew he would, because he is a natural athlete with a good sense of rhythm. The teaching at the salsa classes we took last year was not so good. Polka Society teachers, though, are about 80 years old, patient and encouraging. One teacher helped Primo get the knack of it and told him, "Youse are generally doing pretty good today," which made Primo say that maybe dancing wasn't so bad after all.
His dancing with me is my Christmas present from two years ago. Last year, his present was that I do not have to visit his mom and dad with him, although how will I ever get enough material for a good tell-all nasty out-law memoir if I don't spend more time with them? Am I willing to make the sacrifice to get that bestseller and the condo on Key Biscayne, just five miles down the road from Palacio de Jugos with its lechon, arepas and batidos de guayaba?
Yes. I think I am. If I can get more drugs. Did you know I had a migraine for 12 straight days last year in anticipation of the visit and during the visit itself? I need painkillers and preferably something that will let me sleepwalk through the experience so instead of getting mad and arguing with his dad, I just smile beatifically and say, "That's fantastic [how you were never held accountable for your performance and held the taxpayers of your state hostage to your union/tenured demands]!"
By the middle of sophomore year, we could all get into bars without fake IDs because we were finally 19, not the 18 we had been the year before when we had to borrow IDs from upperclassmen. Karen, who was 5'1" and brunette, had borrowed an ID from Bea, who was 5'10" and blonde. The bouncer just looked at it and grunted. And took Karen's two dollars.
Still, the upperclassmen hadn't always wanted to lend their driver's licenses to us, so during our freshman year, my friends Anita, Heather, Rene and I were forced to go to the flea market held every Saturday to get fake IDs. Someone knew someone who sold IDs way in the back of the market, past the bright cotton Oaxaca dresses, the serapes, the counterfeit Long and Silky shampoo, the tamales and the used auto parts spread out on a blanket on the ground because when I need a part for my car, the flea market is the first place I think of.
Our fake IDs did not look remotely like legitimate driver's licenses, what with their greenish cast, but they had the right birthdates on them, as in, making us each ten believable years older.
It's not like the bars cared, anyhow.
Calvin and I went to movies and danced and ate at the gyro place and at the empanada place right across the street* and took long walks around campus in the evening, which you can do all year because there is NO SNOW and talked about whatever two horny college sophomores talk about when they are not necking, which was our favorite activity and which we usually did in the physics lab or on top of the geology building, as both of us had roommates who did not leave the room enough.
He was usually late to pick me up, which annoyed me to no end. I hate it when people are late and I especially hate it when it is Saturday night and the reason they are late is because they were helping Jim or Scott or Bob with the physics homework.
It's Saturday night.
Tell them to wait.
The kissing made up for it, though. For a guy who had never kissed a girl before, except one little kiss from Candace Allegra C., Calvin's big high school crush, who, I am sad to say, is showing the effects of never having used sunblock on her face her entire life and I know this how? Because I am a googlestalker with way too much time on her hands and I remember names.
Wear sunblock and a hat. This is what I am telling you. Do you want to look like an old lady when you are only 46? No I didn't think so. Heather's mom tried to warn us when we were in college and would sit on the sundeck but did we listen to her? No I did not and I regret it now.
Also, take the stairs as much as you can when you are young before your butt starts to fall. Better to keep that from happening in the first place than to try to fight gravity once it's too late. You can thank me later.
We had been dating for a couple of months and things were going swimmingly. I had some status now as a girl with a boyfriend. Not that it was so hard to get male attention at Small Private School: the male students outnumbered the female students two to one. Still. I had a boyfriend. I wasn't thinking any further than the next weekend.
A few months into the semester, I was sleeping late and skipping class, which was my wont, which goes a long way to explaining my college GPA vs my grad school GPA. Did you know that if you prepare for class, go to class, sit in the front row, and ask questions when you don't understand something that you do a lot better on tests than if you 1. don't do the readings and 2. don't attend class?
I had a huge misunderstanding of what a roll was. I thought it was a class so easy that you didn't even need to attend to get an A.
Wrong.
It was a class where it was easy to get an A if you prepared, attended and asked questions.
Who knew?
I thought I was so smart taking probability and statistics for academic majors (as opposed to P&S for science and engineering majors). I'd already taken calculus and differential equations. Shouldn't P&S have been a piece of cake?
Well sure.
If I had gone to class. And when I took P&S in grad school, I did very well. I had learned my lesson.
But as a college sophomore who had just changed her major from electrical engineering with a concentration in biomedical engineering so I could go to med school and then design bionics to English, I was not so clueful.
Hence, the skipping class.
That morning, I heard a knock on my door, which annoyed me as it awoke me at the crack of dawn hour of 9:15.
It was Calvin.
Now that I think about it, why wasn't he in class? He never skipped. People borrowed his notes. They went to him for homework help.
He had something to tell me, he blurted out.
Not until I've had a shower, I told him.
I made him wait while I bathed and wondered what on earth he could be so nervous about. Was he going to break up with me? Would I be upset if he did?
I emerged from the bathroom, dressed, I suppose, because we were not at That Stage. We were still at the hand-holding, kissing, and touching only above the neck stage. Yes, it is completely possible for college students to be virginal. We were of the No Sex Before Marriage group, remember?
And he told me he was in love with me.
Well.
Nobody had ever said that to me before. Nobody who wasn't a relative.
I had no idea what to say to him.
So I told him I had to get to class.
As soon as I could, I called my mom and dad. What am I supposed to tell this guy? I demanded.
They laughed. Whatever I wanted to, they told me.
I thought about it and a few days later, as we took a late-evening walk through the quad, I told him I loved him, too. Then we talked about getting married because that is the logical progression for two college sophomores in love, one of whom plans to get a PhD and would not be ready to support a family for many years.
* Note to self: get a dozen empanadas - cream cheese and blueberry, pizza, banana and dulce de leche - when Primo and I go to our 25 year reunion next month.
I went back to school after Christmas break. I had a boyfriend. I guess. I had won my bet. I had gotten him to kiss me. Was that enough? Or did I want to keep seeing Calvin?
I must have, because we did indeed date.
"Dating" meant going to the movies at the Chemistry lecture hall on Saturday nights for a dollar. Or going dancing with a group of friends, most of whom couldn't have cared less about the liquor we were not legal to buy - we were at the Winchester Club to two step and polka.
Primo thinks country western dancing is dumb, but that is because Primo thinks he cannot dance and has never tried to two step. Primo might have had a better shot at getting laid in college if he had spent more time dancing than drinking. And if he hadn't been obsessed with a crazy (seriously) girl who used him. Just saying.
He will learn to dance this winter, though, when we can't play tennis any more. He promised. We dropped in on the polka class at a festival and he did just fine, as I knew he would, because he is a natural athlete with a good sense of rhythm. The teaching at the salsa classes we took last year was not so good. Polka Society teachers, though, are about 80 years old, patient and encouraging. One teacher helped Primo get the knack of it and told him, "Youse are generally doing pretty good today," which made Primo say that maybe dancing wasn't so bad after all.
His dancing with me is my Christmas present from two years ago. Last year, his present was that I do not have to visit his mom and dad with him, although how will I ever get enough material for a good tell-all nasty out-law memoir if I don't spend more time with them? Am I willing to make the sacrifice to get that bestseller and the condo on Key Biscayne, just five miles down the road from Palacio de Jugos with its lechon, arepas and batidos de guayaba?
Yes. I think I am. If I can get more drugs. Did you know I had a migraine for 12 straight days last year in anticipation of the visit and during the visit itself? I need painkillers and preferably something that will let me sleepwalk through the experience so instead of getting mad and arguing with his dad, I just smile beatifically and say, "That's fantastic [how you were never held accountable for your performance and held the taxpayers of your state hostage to your union/tenured demands]!"
By the middle of sophomore year, we could all get into bars without fake IDs because we were finally 19, not the 18 we had been the year before when we had to borrow IDs from upperclassmen. Karen, who was 5'1" and brunette, had borrowed an ID from Bea, who was 5'10" and blonde. The bouncer just looked at it and grunted. And took Karen's two dollars.
Still, the upperclassmen hadn't always wanted to lend their driver's licenses to us, so during our freshman year, my friends Anita, Heather, Rene and I were forced to go to the flea market held every Saturday to get fake IDs. Someone knew someone who sold IDs way in the back of the market, past the bright cotton Oaxaca dresses, the serapes, the counterfeit Long and Silky shampoo, the tamales and the used auto parts spread out on a blanket on the ground because when I need a part for my car, the flea market is the first place I think of.
Our fake IDs did not look remotely like legitimate driver's licenses, what with their greenish cast, but they had the right birthdates on them, as in, making us each ten believable years older.
It's not like the bars cared, anyhow.
Calvin and I went to movies and danced and ate at the gyro place and at the empanada place right across the street* and took long walks around campus in the evening, which you can do all year because there is NO SNOW and talked about whatever two horny college sophomores talk about when they are not necking, which was our favorite activity and which we usually did in the physics lab or on top of the geology building, as both of us had roommates who did not leave the room enough.
He was usually late to pick me up, which annoyed me to no end. I hate it when people are late and I especially hate it when it is Saturday night and the reason they are late is because they were helping Jim or Scott or Bob with the physics homework.
It's Saturday night.
Tell them to wait.
The kissing made up for it, though. For a guy who had never kissed a girl before, except one little kiss from Candace Allegra C., Calvin's big high school crush, who, I am sad to say, is showing the effects of never having used sunblock on her face her entire life and I know this how? Because I am a googlestalker with way too much time on her hands and I remember names.
Wear sunblock and a hat. This is what I am telling you. Do you want to look like an old lady when you are only 46? No I didn't think so. Heather's mom tried to warn us when we were in college and would sit on the sundeck but did we listen to her? No I did not and I regret it now.
Also, take the stairs as much as you can when you are young before your butt starts to fall. Better to keep that from happening in the first place than to try to fight gravity once it's too late. You can thank me later.
We had been dating for a couple of months and things were going swimmingly. I had some status now as a girl with a boyfriend. Not that it was so hard to get male attention at Small Private School: the male students outnumbered the female students two to one. Still. I had a boyfriend. I wasn't thinking any further than the next weekend.
A few months into the semester, I was sleeping late and skipping class, which was my wont, which goes a long way to explaining my college GPA vs my grad school GPA. Did you know that if you prepare for class, go to class, sit in the front row, and ask questions when you don't understand something that you do a lot better on tests than if you 1. don't do the readings and 2. don't attend class?
I had a huge misunderstanding of what a roll was. I thought it was a class so easy that you didn't even need to attend to get an A.
Wrong.
It was a class where it was easy to get an A if you prepared, attended and asked questions.
Who knew?
I thought I was so smart taking probability and statistics for academic majors (as opposed to P&S for science and engineering majors). I'd already taken calculus and differential equations. Shouldn't P&S have been a piece of cake?
Well sure.
If I had gone to class. And when I took P&S in grad school, I did very well. I had learned my lesson.
But as a college sophomore who had just changed her major from electrical engineering with a concentration in biomedical engineering so I could go to med school and then design bionics to English, I was not so clueful.
Hence, the skipping class.
That morning, I heard a knock on my door, which annoyed me as it awoke me at the crack of dawn hour of 9:15.
It was Calvin.
Now that I think about it, why wasn't he in class? He never skipped. People borrowed his notes. They went to him for homework help.
He had something to tell me, he blurted out.
Not until I've had a shower, I told him.
I made him wait while I bathed and wondered what on earth he could be so nervous about. Was he going to break up with me? Would I be upset if he did?
I emerged from the bathroom, dressed, I suppose, because we were not at That Stage. We were still at the hand-holding, kissing, and touching only above the neck stage. Yes, it is completely possible for college students to be virginal. We were of the No Sex Before Marriage group, remember?
And he told me he was in love with me.
Well.
Nobody had ever said that to me before. Nobody who wasn't a relative.
I had no idea what to say to him.
So I told him I had to get to class.
As soon as I could, I called my mom and dad. What am I supposed to tell this guy? I demanded.
They laughed. Whatever I wanted to, they told me.
I thought about it and a few days later, as we took a late-evening walk through the quad, I told him I loved him, too. Then we talked about getting married because that is the logical progression for two college sophomores in love, one of whom plans to get a PhD and would not be ready to support a family for many years.
* Note to self: get a dozen empanadas - cream cheese and blueberry, pizza, banana and dulce de leche - when Primo and I go to our 25 year reunion next month.
Monday, September 13, 2010
In which I stalk my college boyfriend before we start dating so he will want to date me because every man wants an obsessed woman
When I left you, I was on a "date" with Jake, my physics lab partner, and had just met Calvin, who later became my boyfriend, then not my boyfriend when I met his hot friend Seth who had the fabulous abs, then my boyfriend again when I realized Seth had no interest whatsoever in me, then my fiance' and then not my fiance,' but only after my mom had reserved the church and I had bought the dress.
I took one look at Calvin and thought, Well now he's a hottie, isn't he? only I didn't think the word "hottie" because it was not yet in use in the early '80s. "Stud" and "studmuffin" were the terms of art back then. "Hunk" was also used, although "hunkalicious" would not find popularity until 2009, way too late to use for Calvin.
But they all applied.
He was hot.
Even more appealing to me than his smoldering dark good looks and cute smile was the fact that he was completely, totally uninterested in me. No vibe whatsoever.
Nothing I like better than a challenge.
I'd had only a date or two my freshman year of college, if you could even call them dates. A date implies interest on the part of both parties, not an interested guy and a girl who's too startled at being asked out to know how to say, "no." It implies that the girl know when a guy tells her that he has an extra ticket to the Tom Petty concert and does she want to go that he is really asking her on a date, not trying to keep the ticket from going to waste, because if that's all he wanted, he could have asked his roommate. But some girls will just go because they've never been to a rock concert before (really!) and then be shocked, shocked when the guy tries to hold their (her?) hand because when has she ever shown any interest in this guy?
See also, "I go to a play with my roommate's brother's roommate and then he walks me back to my room and won't leave so I sit with my roommates to watch TV and pull out my knitting, then go to a midnight showing of Rocky Horror with the cute guys who walk past our room and invite anyone who wants to go with them."
I needed a strategy to make Calvin mine.
Part of it was to lose 25 pounds.
Yeah, yeah, yeah. I know it's what's inside that matters, but 18 year old men who can choose from an entire cafeteria of girls will choose the ones they find most visually appealing and select for personality later. I needed to catch his eye before he would even talk to me.
Over the summer, I de-chubbed. What a pain in the neck. Eating less, exercising more. I hate it all.
But when I returned to school that fall, there was less of me to love and I had a better haircut.
Then my roommates, who were in on the plan with me, and I began to include Calvin in our group activities. We were already friends with some of his friends, so it wasn't too hard.
He was a hard nut to crack. Study, study, study. He was majoring in electrical engineering and physics and had appointed himself the homework helper to the world. He didn't have much free time.
Yet I persisted. I would visit him and his roommates - just saying hi! Just making myself obnoxious!
Over Christmas break, I saw my chance. My family lived in San Antonio. So did his. I proposed that we get together and do something while we were home. Probably too surprised to say no, he agreed.
My friends bet me that I couldn't get him to kiss me. He was too shy, they said. He wasn't interested in girls. Or in me. Fine. Show me the money.
What did we do? I can't remember. Maybe we went to a movie. I do remember that he picked me up. (He had his own car. He was an Only.)
When he dropped me off at the end of the evening, he walked me to the door. Took my hand. Kissed it.
Oh no, I told him. Not there. Here. And I pointed to my lips.
He gave me an awkward peck.
I was disappointed. Really? That was it?
You can do better than that! I exclaimed.
He tried again.
Practice did make perfect.
I took one look at Calvin and thought, Well now he's a hottie, isn't he? only I didn't think the word "hottie" because it was not yet in use in the early '80s. "Stud" and "studmuffin" were the terms of art back then. "Hunk" was also used, although "hunkalicious" would not find popularity until 2009, way too late to use for Calvin.
But they all applied.
He was hot.
Even more appealing to me than his smoldering dark good looks and cute smile was the fact that he was completely, totally uninterested in me. No vibe whatsoever.
Nothing I like better than a challenge.
I'd had only a date or two my freshman year of college, if you could even call them dates. A date implies interest on the part of both parties, not an interested guy and a girl who's too startled at being asked out to know how to say, "no." It implies that the girl know when a guy tells her that he has an extra ticket to the Tom Petty concert and does she want to go that he is really asking her on a date, not trying to keep the ticket from going to waste, because if that's all he wanted, he could have asked his roommate. But some girls will just go because they've never been to a rock concert before (really!) and then be shocked, shocked when the guy tries to hold their (her?) hand because when has she ever shown any interest in this guy?
See also, "I go to a play with my roommate's brother's roommate and then he walks me back to my room and won't leave so I sit with my roommates to watch TV and pull out my knitting, then go to a midnight showing of Rocky Horror with the cute guys who walk past our room and invite anyone who wants to go with them."
I needed a strategy to make Calvin mine.
Part of it was to lose 25 pounds.
Yeah, yeah, yeah. I know it's what's inside that matters, but 18 year old men who can choose from an entire cafeteria of girls will choose the ones they find most visually appealing and select for personality later. I needed to catch his eye before he would even talk to me.
Over the summer, I de-chubbed. What a pain in the neck. Eating less, exercising more. I hate it all.
But when I returned to school that fall, there was less of me to love and I had a better haircut.
Then my roommates, who were in on the plan with me, and I began to include Calvin in our group activities. We were already friends with some of his friends, so it wasn't too hard.
He was a hard nut to crack. Study, study, study. He was majoring in electrical engineering and physics and had appointed himself the homework helper to the world. He didn't have much free time.
Yet I persisted. I would visit him and his roommates - just saying hi! Just making myself obnoxious!
Over Christmas break, I saw my chance. My family lived in San Antonio. So did his. I proposed that we get together and do something while we were home. Probably too surprised to say no, he agreed.
My friends bet me that I couldn't get him to kiss me. He was too shy, they said. He wasn't interested in girls. Or in me. Fine. Show me the money.
What did we do? I can't remember. Maybe we went to a movie. I do remember that he picked me up. (He had his own car. He was an Only.)
When he dropped me off at the end of the evening, he walked me to the door. Took my hand. Kissed it.
Oh no, I told him. Not there. Here. And I pointed to my lips.
He gave me an awkward peck.
I was disappointed. Really? That was it?
You can do better than that! I exclaimed.
He tried again.
Practice did make perfect.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
In which I meet my college boyfriend, who later became my fiance' but then I changed my mind about getting married and he married my roommate instead
Let me be clear about one thing from the outset: my college boyfriend, Calvin, is a great guy. My decision not to marry him had nothing to do with his being a jerk (he wasn't a jerk - I dated him for three years - even I don't put up with jerkness for that long) and everything to do with my being only 22 years old at the time. Twenty two is very young to marry. It's also young to make career decisions, but what can you do?
My freshman year of college, beginning of the second semester, it snowed. In Big Southern City. This happens once every gajillion years or so. Big Southern City is usually quite humid (= Hell is the staging ground for Big Southern City) but on the snow day, the air got really dry. My eyes got dry. That was back in the day when I wore hard contact lenses. Dry eyes + hard contacts = scratched eyes, which meant a trip to the ER (had I known then what I know now, I never would have wasted medical resources like that, but it felt as if someone was pouring acid in my eyes and I was 18 and didn't know what else to do). They rinsed my eyes and told me to keep patches on them for a few days.
My roommates kindly drew me a wardrobe of eyes to wear over the patches and escorted me to the commons for meals and to my classes. I didn't, however, go to my first physics lab (I was an engineering major before I changed to the oh so practical English), which was when everyone picked their lab partners. I was partnerless when I showed up for the second class. So was Jake, who had twisted his ankle playing basketball. He hobbled and I squinted into class.
It was destiny.
We were great lab partners because we would calculate what our results should be (density of water? rate of gravity? easy!) and set up the experiment to get the results we wanted, which meant it took us half the time it did the other students.
Suckers.
Our labbie might not have approved, but bless his Korean graduate student heart, we couldn't understand a word he said, so even if he had been telling us to tear it all down and start over, we didn't know.
This method didn't hurt Jake too much. He got a PhD in chemistry from CalTech, which makes me think his technique wasn't so far off.
Naturally, I developed a crush on Jake because he was funny and smart, which is the lethal combination that always gets me.
One day, as we walked back from lab to our dorms, Jake asked me, "Do you want to go to [this dorm dinner]?"
I paused. What did he mean? Was he asking me on a date or was this an in-theory question, like, "Would you like to be two inches taller and 20 pounds lighter but with bigger bosoms?"
Well duh.
Who wouldn't?
I answered cautiously. "With you?"
Wouldn't you be concerned? What if I had answered, "Yes!" and he had said, "Well I hope someone asks you."
Then I would have felt dumb.
"Yes, with me!" he said impatiently.
Well yes then!
I was so excited. Maybe my feelings were reciprocated.
They weren't. Jake just wanted a date for the event. I don't even remember how I figured out he was not at all interested in me but it didn't matter, because his roommate, Calvin, was also at this event and without a date.
And really cute.
And really smart.
I looked at him and thought, "That's the man I'm going to marry."
And I almost did.
But it took some work to get to that point.
More on the Calvin, who had almost never kissed a girl, story next time.
My freshman year of college, beginning of the second semester, it snowed. In Big Southern City. This happens once every gajillion years or so. Big Southern City is usually quite humid (= Hell is the staging ground for Big Southern City) but on the snow day, the air got really dry. My eyes got dry. That was back in the day when I wore hard contact lenses. Dry eyes + hard contacts = scratched eyes, which meant a trip to the ER (had I known then what I know now, I never would have wasted medical resources like that, but it felt as if someone was pouring acid in my eyes and I was 18 and didn't know what else to do). They rinsed my eyes and told me to keep patches on them for a few days.
My roommates kindly drew me a wardrobe of eyes to wear over the patches and escorted me to the commons for meals and to my classes. I didn't, however, go to my first physics lab (I was an engineering major before I changed to the oh so practical English), which was when everyone picked their lab partners. I was partnerless when I showed up for the second class. So was Jake, who had twisted his ankle playing basketball. He hobbled and I squinted into class.
It was destiny.
We were great lab partners because we would calculate what our results should be (density of water? rate of gravity? easy!) and set up the experiment to get the results we wanted, which meant it took us half the time it did the other students.
Suckers.
Our labbie might not have approved, but bless his Korean graduate student heart, we couldn't understand a word he said, so even if he had been telling us to tear it all down and start over, we didn't know.
This method didn't hurt Jake too much. He got a PhD in chemistry from CalTech, which makes me think his technique wasn't so far off.
Naturally, I developed a crush on Jake because he was funny and smart, which is the lethal combination that always gets me.
One day, as we walked back from lab to our dorms, Jake asked me, "Do you want to go to [this dorm dinner]?"
I paused. What did he mean? Was he asking me on a date or was this an in-theory question, like, "Would you like to be two inches taller and 20 pounds lighter but with bigger bosoms?"
Well duh.
Who wouldn't?
I answered cautiously. "With you?"
Wouldn't you be concerned? What if I had answered, "Yes!" and he had said, "Well I hope someone asks you."
Then I would have felt dumb.
"Yes, with me!" he said impatiently.
Well yes then!
I was so excited. Maybe my feelings were reciprocated.
They weren't. Jake just wanted a date for the event. I don't even remember how I figured out he was not at all interested in me but it didn't matter, because his roommate, Calvin, was also at this event and without a date.
And really cute.
And really smart.
I looked at him and thought, "That's the man I'm going to marry."
And I almost did.
But it took some work to get to that point.
More on the Calvin, who had almost never kissed a girl, story next time.
Monday, September 6, 2010
In which I work for a crazy boss
I know, I know. Everyone has a crazy boss at some point and I should consider myself lucky that this boss, Crazy Cathy, was only a short-term boss in a temporary employment situation. I was considering going into the Peace Corps and didn't have a whole lot vested with CC, but it was still a pain in the neck.
I was in Austin and had finished my MBA. Unlike my wiser fellow students, I had made no effort whatsoever to find gainful employment before graduation. I was aloof, sure that I would escape the corporate rat marathon that everyone else seemed so eager to run.
Ha. Stupid me. I forgot the part about how if you want to make a decent living, you have to work for your money. As in, they don't pay you the big bucks because it's fun to go to the office every day; they pay you because it's hard and you have to deal with idiots. Not all of us can be major league ball players or actresses. We don't have the talent to be athletes or the photogenicity to be on film. That leaves corporate cubicle dronedom, unless of course you are a trust fund brat and inherited wealth is a whole separate category that I won't address here as I have no experience with it, except that it wasn't until I got to college that I first encountered people who were from another socio-economic strata from mine. Most families on military bases are about the same income level and even if someone has wealth from another source, you wouldn't know because base housing is assigned by need and rank, not by wealth. One of my college classmates was getting some fancy car, though, and his dad was having it custom made. Actually, even being around students whose parents were paying their tuition and giving them spending money for beer was a novelty.
But I digress.
He who wants to eat must work and eating is my favorite hobby, which means work is a necessary evil.
Still, I didn't want to go back to another big company because I had just left a big company. I had this vision of working for a small company where life would be all rainbows and unicorns. So I waited until after I had graduated, then spent the rest of my savings on a ten-week traipse through Europe, Turkey and Israel, before I commenced my job search.
Surprise!
Nobody was hiring in the summer of 1992. At least, they weren't hiring me.
I started networking, as rumor has it that is how one finds a job.
I contacted former clients from when I had worked for the insurance company before grad school. One of them, Crazy Cathy, owned a small company with her husband. When I asked her to keep me in mind if anyone needed to hire someone such as I, she asked if I would do some work for her. Her human resources director had quit and she needed to hire a replacement. Would I go through the resumes and screen the candidates?
Sure. Piece of cake.
But there was more.
Each candidate in whom she might be interested had to be tested. If the person passed the test, CC would interview him. I graded the test as the candidate waited and knew right away if he would proceed further.
But CC wouldn't let me tell people that they were out.
I had to leave them hanging, which as anyone who has ever looked for a job knows, is a horrible feeling.
I myself had to take the test. I missed one question out of 20 or so. What do you call the person who runs a factory or an apartment building? Apparently, the answer was "superintendent," but considering I had never lived in New York* and every person I have ever heard of running a factory is called a plant manager or the like, superintendent was not the word that sprang to mind. CC said I had one of the highest scores she had ever seen. Whatever.
Once a candidate had passed the first test, he had to take a second one - a personality profile called the Birkman test. This test is not supposed to be used as a hiring tool, but that did not stop CC. She fancied herself a psychologist.
Here's the rest of it: the first test was an intelligence test.
In the state of Texas and I know this because I called the Department of Labor and a friend who used to be an HR director for Kraft and who had worked in Texas, it is illegal to give an intelligence test as part of the hiring process. Or, probably, it is illegal to consider the results of an intelligence test in hiring someone unless you can prove that intelligence measured in that way is a necessary part of the job.
I was quite uncomfortable with doing something illegal. I thought maybe CC just didn't know, so I mentioned my call to her. She was furious. How dare I! How DARE I?!
Yet I continued to work there. CC, who showed up a few hours a week, would call for me while I was away from my desk (OMG! I went to the ladies' room sometimes!) and would be livid when I returned her call. Where was I? Why hadn't I been at my desk?
She paid me to feed their cats while they were out of town, which was just fine except she charged those hours to the company instead of paying me out of her personal funds. Tax fraud. And - they paid their employees below-market salaries because they (claimed they) had profit sharing. Profits that were artificially diminished because she was charging her personal expenses to the company.
None of this was the last straw, though. It wasn't until the head finance guy had me go through all the customer files to identify California customers and their 1990 purchases so the company could remit sales tax to California that I lost it. It wasn't pulling the 1990 purchases - it was after I had spent three days going through every single customer file to make a photocopy of any California customer purchases, the finance guy said, "Now do the same thing for 1991."
"But why didn't you just ask me to do both of them at the same time?" I sputtered, incredulous.
He shrugged. "You're being paid by the hour, aren't you?"
"I'm not being paid to be bored and inefficient," I shot at him.
Then I burst into tears. "I used to make $75,000 a year and I had my own secretary!" I sobbed as I left his office, furious. Nothing more humiliating than crying at work, in front of a jerk, over something so stupid. He was right. I was being paid by the hour. I should have welcomed the extra work, no matter how excruciatingly dull it was.
Three hours later, the finance guy showed up at my desk. "We won't be needing your services any more," he announced. He waited for me to get my things and walked me out. Because you know, I was going to trash the place. I couldn't believe I had been fired from such a corrupt place. I should have reported them to the IRS and the Department of Labor. Jerks.
* Which was why the taxicab medallion example made no sense to me in Econ 102, and yes I should have raised my hand and asked what the heck a medallion was and why it had anything to do with supply and demand, but I was a timid thing when I was in college and my professor was intimidating.
I was in Austin and had finished my MBA. Unlike my wiser fellow students, I had made no effort whatsoever to find gainful employment before graduation. I was aloof, sure that I would escape the corporate rat marathon that everyone else seemed so eager to run.
Ha. Stupid me. I forgot the part about how if you want to make a decent living, you have to work for your money. As in, they don't pay you the big bucks because it's fun to go to the office every day; they pay you because it's hard and you have to deal with idiots. Not all of us can be major league ball players or actresses. We don't have the talent to be athletes or the photogenicity to be on film. That leaves corporate cubicle dronedom, unless of course you are a trust fund brat and inherited wealth is a whole separate category that I won't address here as I have no experience with it, except that it wasn't until I got to college that I first encountered people who were from another socio-economic strata from mine. Most families on military bases are about the same income level and even if someone has wealth from another source, you wouldn't know because base housing is assigned by need and rank, not by wealth. One of my college classmates was getting some fancy car, though, and his dad was having it custom made. Actually, even being around students whose parents were paying their tuition and giving them spending money for beer was a novelty.
But I digress.
He who wants to eat must work and eating is my favorite hobby, which means work is a necessary evil.
Still, I didn't want to go back to another big company because I had just left a big company. I had this vision of working for a small company where life would be all rainbows and unicorns. So I waited until after I had graduated, then spent the rest of my savings on a ten-week traipse through Europe, Turkey and Israel, before I commenced my job search.
Surprise!
Nobody was hiring in the summer of 1992. At least, they weren't hiring me.
I started networking, as rumor has it that is how one finds a job.
I contacted former clients from when I had worked for the insurance company before grad school. One of them, Crazy Cathy, owned a small company with her husband. When I asked her to keep me in mind if anyone needed to hire someone such as I, she asked if I would do some work for her. Her human resources director had quit and she needed to hire a replacement. Would I go through the resumes and screen the candidates?
Sure. Piece of cake.
But there was more.
Each candidate in whom she might be interested had to be tested. If the person passed the test, CC would interview him. I graded the test as the candidate waited and knew right away if he would proceed further.
But CC wouldn't let me tell people that they were out.
I had to leave them hanging, which as anyone who has ever looked for a job knows, is a horrible feeling.
I myself had to take the test. I missed one question out of 20 or so. What do you call the person who runs a factory or an apartment building? Apparently, the answer was "superintendent," but considering I had never lived in New York* and every person I have ever heard of running a factory is called a plant manager or the like, superintendent was not the word that sprang to mind. CC said I had one of the highest scores she had ever seen. Whatever.
Once a candidate had passed the first test, he had to take a second one - a personality profile called the Birkman test. This test is not supposed to be used as a hiring tool, but that did not stop CC. She fancied herself a psychologist.
Here's the rest of it: the first test was an intelligence test.
In the state of Texas and I know this because I called the Department of Labor and a friend who used to be an HR director for Kraft and who had worked in Texas, it is illegal to give an intelligence test as part of the hiring process. Or, probably, it is illegal to consider the results of an intelligence test in hiring someone unless you can prove that intelligence measured in that way is a necessary part of the job.
I was quite uncomfortable with doing something illegal. I thought maybe CC just didn't know, so I mentioned my call to her. She was furious. How dare I! How DARE I?!
Yet I continued to work there. CC, who showed up a few hours a week, would call for me while I was away from my desk (OMG! I went to the ladies' room sometimes!) and would be livid when I returned her call. Where was I? Why hadn't I been at my desk?
She paid me to feed their cats while they were out of town, which was just fine except she charged those hours to the company instead of paying me out of her personal funds. Tax fraud. And - they paid their employees below-market salaries because they (claimed they) had profit sharing. Profits that were artificially diminished because she was charging her personal expenses to the company.
None of this was the last straw, though. It wasn't until the head finance guy had me go through all the customer files to identify California customers and their 1990 purchases so the company could remit sales tax to California that I lost it. It wasn't pulling the 1990 purchases - it was after I had spent three days going through every single customer file to make a photocopy of any California customer purchases, the finance guy said, "Now do the same thing for 1991."
"But why didn't you just ask me to do both of them at the same time?" I sputtered, incredulous.
He shrugged. "You're being paid by the hour, aren't you?"
"I'm not being paid to be bored and inefficient," I shot at him.
Then I burst into tears. "I used to make $75,000 a year and I had my own secretary!" I sobbed as I left his office, furious. Nothing more humiliating than crying at work, in front of a jerk, over something so stupid. He was right. I was being paid by the hour. I should have welcomed the extra work, no matter how excruciatingly dull it was.
Three hours later, the finance guy showed up at my desk. "We won't be needing your services any more," he announced. He waited for me to get my things and walked me out. Because you know, I was going to trash the place. I couldn't believe I had been fired from such a corrupt place. I should have reported them to the IRS and the Department of Labor. Jerks.
* Which was why the taxicab medallion example made no sense to me in Econ 102, and yes I should have raised my hand and asked what the heck a medallion was and why it had anything to do with supply and demand, but I was a timid thing when I was in college and my professor was intimidating.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
In which I go out with the train guy and am soooo bored but he does not appear to be bored at all
Y'all, I am not going to write too much about Kip, the cute train guy, because 1. he is such a nice guy and I don't want to appear to be mocking him and 2. I don't remember much about what happened. If only I had been a blogger back then. I would have archives.
After I had been riding the train for a few weeks, I started to recognize the other passengers. A lot of us read on the trip and would talk about and exchange books. Then there were the two recovering heroin addicts who had met in their 12-step program or treatment center or wherever and were conducting the clothed part of their affair (they were both married, but not to each other) on the ride to work every morning. Good thing there were frequent traffic accidents and suicides that extended the trip, right? More time for looove.
I noticed Kip waiting for the train at my stop. He got on at Ft Lauderdale and got off where I did, in west Boca. He was very cute. He still is. I google-stalked him (oh like you don't*). He has aged well, which is fine. It's only the men who were jerks to me that I want to see looking like Keith Richards on a bad day.
I don't remember who spoke to whom first, but maybe I was in one of my sensible "let them come to you" phases. I seem to have had far less heartache when the guy pursued me rather than when I pursued him. Maybe he first spoke to me about the violin I brought to work every Wednesday. I was taking violin lessons and didn't want to leave the violin in the car all day in the heat while I was at work. I wasn't worried about it being stolen because car thieves in Miami were not known for their interest in classical music and it's not like there is a big market for hot violins. That I know of.
He asked me out.
I said yes.
Why wouldn't I? Cute guy, employed, educated. I am easy.
He said he would take the train from Ft Lauderdale to Miami, then connect to the metrarail or whatever is was called, because why drive when you have a train pass?
I asked if I should pick him up at the station, which was about a mile from my house, and he said no. He would walk.
OK. A man willing to walk a mile just to see me?
I was flattered.
He arrived early so he could repair my washer. I am putty in the hands of a man who can repair my major appliances. It took him only half an hour, then what to do?
He deserved some kind of payment.
So we made out.
Not my proudest moment.
Not unlike my first kiss when I was in second grade. A boy on the playground wanted to kiss me and I told him no, but then he offered me a piece of gum, so I said yes. I was a little Double Bubble hooker.
Then we went to supper in Cocowalk, where he talked and I listened and thought, He is so cute but I am so uninterested in what he has to say and he doesn't seem to be interested in what I think, so why are we here?
But he asked me out again and again and again. And sat by me on the train. And sent me emails and called me at work. And invited me to his office to have lunch at his company cafeteria and meet his friends.
Primo suggests that even though I was bored with him, Kip might not have been bored with me.
I can't imagine how Kip would have found me not boring considering all I did was listen to him talk.
But maybe that's all he wanted.
After a few weeks, I decided that Kip needed to be free.
But I think he might have broken up with me. I can't remember.
Whatever it was, it wasn't acrimonious because every year or so, I would get an email from him. He married the next woman he dated (that happened to me a lot: I was the prep girlfriend) and had a baby.
I went on to date Yves, the guy who sent me the e-card for my birthday. Oh yes I can pick them.
* I just looked up Cindy C, who was the prissy first chair violin when I was in orchestra in junior high. Her mother drove her to school, so Cindy could take her violin home and practice every day. I rode my bike to school, which meant moving a violin was more challenging. I would like to point out that even though she practiced a lot more than I did, we split first chair most of the year. Ha.
She wore even dorkier underwear than I did, so I had someone to feel superior to in gym. Elaine down the street wore lacy underpants with a matching bra and she had the figure for it. Cindy and I were in waist-high, flowered underpants in 7th grade, but by 8th grade, I knew to insist at least on bikini underwear. I don't even have lacy underpants now. Just not practical or comfortable. But Cindy stayed in her waist-high undies and undershirts! Not even a training bra, but an undershirt with a little bow at the bosom. Poor Cindy. Her mother was clueless.
She is now a flight attendant, which is about the last job I would have put her in, but man, I hope I'm a little more socially adept than I was in 7th grade. The question: should I friend her? I was not kind to her when we were in school. But it was all behind her back. Mostly.
After I had been riding the train for a few weeks, I started to recognize the other passengers. A lot of us read on the trip and would talk about and exchange books. Then there were the two recovering heroin addicts who had met in their 12-step program or treatment center or wherever and were conducting the clothed part of their affair (they were both married, but not to each other) on the ride to work every morning. Good thing there were frequent traffic accidents and suicides that extended the trip, right? More time for looove.
I noticed Kip waiting for the train at my stop. He got on at Ft Lauderdale and got off where I did, in west Boca. He was very cute. He still is. I google-stalked him (oh like you don't*). He has aged well, which is fine. It's only the men who were jerks to me that I want to see looking like Keith Richards on a bad day.
I don't remember who spoke to whom first, but maybe I was in one of my sensible "let them come to you" phases. I seem to have had far less heartache when the guy pursued me rather than when I pursued him. Maybe he first spoke to me about the violin I brought to work every Wednesday. I was taking violin lessons and didn't want to leave the violin in the car all day in the heat while I was at work. I wasn't worried about it being stolen because car thieves in Miami were not known for their interest in classical music and it's not like there is a big market for hot violins. That I know of.
He asked me out.
I said yes.
Why wouldn't I? Cute guy, employed, educated. I am easy.
He said he would take the train from Ft Lauderdale to Miami, then connect to the metrarail or whatever is was called, because why drive when you have a train pass?
I asked if I should pick him up at the station, which was about a mile from my house, and he said no. He would walk.
OK. A man willing to walk a mile just to see me?
I was flattered.
He arrived early so he could repair my washer. I am putty in the hands of a man who can repair my major appliances. It took him only half an hour, then what to do?
He deserved some kind of payment.
So we made out.
Not my proudest moment.
Not unlike my first kiss when I was in second grade. A boy on the playground wanted to kiss me and I told him no, but then he offered me a piece of gum, so I said yes. I was a little Double Bubble hooker.
Then we went to supper in Cocowalk, where he talked and I listened and thought, He is so cute but I am so uninterested in what he has to say and he doesn't seem to be interested in what I think, so why are we here?
But he asked me out again and again and again. And sat by me on the train. And sent me emails and called me at work. And invited me to his office to have lunch at his company cafeteria and meet his friends.
Primo suggests that even though I was bored with him, Kip might not have been bored with me.
I can't imagine how Kip would have found me not boring considering all I did was listen to him talk.
But maybe that's all he wanted.
After a few weeks, I decided that Kip needed to be free.
But I think he might have broken up with me. I can't remember.
Whatever it was, it wasn't acrimonious because every year or so, I would get an email from him. He married the next woman he dated (that happened to me a lot: I was the prep girlfriend) and had a baby.
I went on to date Yves, the guy who sent me the e-card for my birthday. Oh yes I can pick them.
* I just looked up Cindy C, who was the prissy first chair violin when I was in orchestra in junior high. Her mother drove her to school, so Cindy could take her violin home and practice every day. I rode my bike to school, which meant moving a violin was more challenging. I would like to point out that even though she practiced a lot more than I did, we split first chair most of the year. Ha.
She wore even dorkier underwear than I did, so I had someone to feel superior to in gym. Elaine down the street wore lacy underpants with a matching bra and she had the figure for it. Cindy and I were in waist-high, flowered underpants in 7th grade, but by 8th grade, I knew to insist at least on bikini underwear. I don't even have lacy underpants now. Just not practical or comfortable. But Cindy stayed in her waist-high undies and undershirts! Not even a training bra, but an undershirt with a little bow at the bosom. Poor Cindy. Her mother was clueless.
She is now a flight attendant, which is about the last job I would have put her in, but man, I hope I'm a little more socially adept than I was in 7th grade. The question: should I friend her? I was not kind to her when we were in school. But it was all behind her back. Mostly.
Monday, August 30, 2010
In which I date a really nice but kind of boring guy I meet on the train
I quit my job in Miami with the Yellow Truck company after one year and one day of employment. My boss, Luke, who is a really nice guy and still a friend (and who no longer works at that sweatshop, either), made me wait the extra day just so nobody could hassle me about repaying the move package or not getting my vacation time.
I quit the sweatshop job because I got a new job. The new job office was in Boca Raton, but they told me not to move from Miami to Boca (about 60 miles?) because they were going to be moving the office to Miami soon. SOON! Really!
I think they were just too cheap to move me up to Boca, not that I had any interest in living in Boca. They never have moved that office to Miami because the guys I worked with had no interest in living in Miami. This was the Latin America group of the paper company. I interviewed with everyone in the office. One of the sales guys spoke no Spanish whatsoever and had no interest in learning. (And how could such a man be salesman in Latin America, you ask? Good question!) When he found out I lived in Miami proper, he was astonished. How, how could I live in Miami?
What's wrong with living in Miami, I asked, genuinely puzzled.
He would never live there, he told me. He had children.
Oh. Right. Miami. Not safe for kids.
He was a racist jerk.
Anyhow. I didn't even consider moving to Boca. If one is going to live in Florida, one might as well live in Miami or else one is just in a giant anonymous suburb that used to be an orange grove. At least in Miami, you know where you are. Some other cities that will go unnamed but that I have had to visit against my will could be anywhere that has a Best Buy, Target, and Starbucks. Not that I don't like any of those places - I do (well, not the Best Buy, which I don't dislike but really I couldn't care less about an electronics store) - but if I have to put up with nasty summers and hurricanes, I want either great Mexican food or great Cuban food. Plus, I really like Miami. It's a neat place. I'd move back.
Even though I had no interest in moving to Boca (home of the Early Bird Special), I also had no interest in driving 120 miles to work and home every day. Hence, the train, which took 80 minutes to get from the airport stop in Miami to the West Boca stop, which was 50 yards from my office, and which was subsidized by the U.S. taxpayer, thank you very much.
Taxpayers, aren't you happy to pay more so some of us can ride the train to work while you are stuck in traffic? Sure, you feel all superior when the train is delayed because someone decided to commit suicide by stopping his car on the tracks and keeping the passengers from getting home before 9:00 p.m., but other than that, you're jealous. Many a naked man is visible from the train, even if he thinks nobody can see him standing by that pickup behind the Home Depot in Ft Lauderdale, and that is a worthwhile sight indeed.
Riding the train was kind of fun, just because there were so many weirdos. Also many nice people. There was Marisol, who suggested very sweetly when I was coughing that I should try some Veevahporoo to make me feel better. You know. Veevahporoo! That pungent cream in the blue jar known as Vicks VapoRub to us gringos and as the miracle cure to the Cubans.
The weirdos, though. I had no idea I was so unbearably attractive to men until I started taking the train. Well, I had some idea because I had traveled from Chile to the U.S. over land and had the opportunity to be hit on by many, many men on trains, buses, and boats in Bolivia, Peru, Ecuador, Honduras, and Mexico. And points in between. So I had learned to be firm. Gringo code didn't work. Being nice but distant did not put off Latin men. They've seen Baywatch. They've seen American movies. They know what American women are like. We will sleep with anyone, anywhere, any time.
Thus I was prepared one morning when I sat in an empty coach and the only other passenger got up from his seat 20 feet away and sat right next to me.
Right next to me.
Not across from me. Not across the aisle. Not behind me.
Right. Next. To. Me.
I knew the next step was conversation and I wasn't interested. I had my Economist, I had my book, I had my newspaper. I had plenty to occupy me for the next hour and 20 minutes.
Yet he persisted. It was 6:00 in the morning and this guy thinks we're in a disco. "Where are you going?" he asked.
I looked at him and said coldly, "There are a million empty seats on this train. Why do you have to sit here?"
He huffed and said that he was just trying to be nice and sheesh, why was I such a bitch? and he'd show me.
Fine.
Leave me alone.
My instincts were correct. A few weeks later, once I started taking the more sane 7:48 train (my boss didn't care when I got to work or left as long as I did my job), a man asked if he could sit across from me (the coach was almost full). I couldn't stop him, so I shrugged and went back to my book. He didn't need to ask. It was an empty seat. But all cons start with a question that demands a "yes" answer. "May I ask you a question?" is about the first thing any panhandler asks you. Just say "no" and keep walking is my advice.
He asked if I would move my newspaper, which was spread on the table between us. Then he removed a thermos from his backpack (he was in a suit) and a pack of instant oatmeal. "I eat my breakfast on the train," he confided in me.
Really? Do tell. I kept reading. Did I look interested?
He ate. Then he pulled out a ziplock bag full of potions and concoctions. And started to tell me exactly what each pill did. And how he lived with his mother.
What do you say to someone like that? What do you say to get him to shut the heck up because there is not another empty seat and you can't move? You just have to get over the dread of being thought Rude and Be Rude. You can justify your Rudeness by telling yourself that Vitamin Oatmeal Man is also being rude by presuming to talk to you while you keep POINTEDLY RETURNING TO YOUR NEWSPAPER after each, "Um-hmm."
So yeah. I avoided VOM after that.
And then there was the airline baggage handler guy with the wandering eye. Not that his wandering eye was his fault, but it did make him seem creepy. He was always staring at the women. Well, part of him was staring and part of him was looking elsewhere.
But there was Kip, the nice guy. He was cute and I watched him. He got on the train at Ft Lauderdale and got off at West Boca. I'll tell you about him next time. I wasted too much space on the weird people today.
I quit the sweatshop job because I got a new job. The new job office was in Boca Raton, but they told me not to move from Miami to Boca (about 60 miles?) because they were going to be moving the office to Miami soon. SOON! Really!
I think they were just too cheap to move me up to Boca, not that I had any interest in living in Boca. They never have moved that office to Miami because the guys I worked with had no interest in living in Miami. This was the Latin America group of the paper company. I interviewed with everyone in the office. One of the sales guys spoke no Spanish whatsoever and had no interest in learning. (And how could such a man be salesman in Latin America, you ask? Good question!) When he found out I lived in Miami proper, he was astonished. How, how could I live in Miami?
What's wrong with living in Miami, I asked, genuinely puzzled.
He would never live there, he told me. He had children.
Oh. Right. Miami. Not safe for kids.
He was a racist jerk.
Anyhow. I didn't even consider moving to Boca. If one is going to live in Florida, one might as well live in Miami or else one is just in a giant anonymous suburb that used to be an orange grove. At least in Miami, you know where you are. Some other cities that will go unnamed but that I have had to visit against my will could be anywhere that has a Best Buy, Target, and Starbucks. Not that I don't like any of those places - I do (well, not the Best Buy, which I don't dislike but really I couldn't care less about an electronics store) - but if I have to put up with nasty summers and hurricanes, I want either great Mexican food or great Cuban food. Plus, I really like Miami. It's a neat place. I'd move back.
Even though I had no interest in moving to Boca (home of the Early Bird Special), I also had no interest in driving 120 miles to work and home every day. Hence, the train, which took 80 minutes to get from the airport stop in Miami to the West Boca stop, which was 50 yards from my office, and which was subsidized by the U.S. taxpayer, thank you very much.
Taxpayers, aren't you happy to pay more so some of us can ride the train to work while you are stuck in traffic? Sure, you feel all superior when the train is delayed because someone decided to commit suicide by stopping his car on the tracks and keeping the passengers from getting home before 9:00 p.m., but other than that, you're jealous. Many a naked man is visible from the train, even if he thinks nobody can see him standing by that pickup behind the Home Depot in Ft Lauderdale, and that is a worthwhile sight indeed.
Riding the train was kind of fun, just because there were so many weirdos. Also many nice people. There was Marisol, who suggested very sweetly when I was coughing that I should try some Veevahporoo to make me feel better. You know. Veevahporoo! That pungent cream in the blue jar known as Vicks VapoRub to us gringos and as the miracle cure to the Cubans.
The weirdos, though. I had no idea I was so unbearably attractive to men until I started taking the train. Well, I had some idea because I had traveled from Chile to the U.S. over land and had the opportunity to be hit on by many, many men on trains, buses, and boats in Bolivia, Peru, Ecuador, Honduras, and Mexico. And points in between. So I had learned to be firm. Gringo code didn't work. Being nice but distant did not put off Latin men. They've seen Baywatch. They've seen American movies. They know what American women are like. We will sleep with anyone, anywhere, any time.
Thus I was prepared one morning when I sat in an empty coach and the only other passenger got up from his seat 20 feet away and sat right next to me.
Right next to me.
Not across from me. Not across the aisle. Not behind me.
Right. Next. To. Me.
I knew the next step was conversation and I wasn't interested. I had my Economist, I had my book, I had my newspaper. I had plenty to occupy me for the next hour and 20 minutes.
Yet he persisted. It was 6:00 in the morning and this guy thinks we're in a disco. "Where are you going?" he asked.
I looked at him and said coldly, "There are a million empty seats on this train. Why do you have to sit here?"
He huffed and said that he was just trying to be nice and sheesh, why was I such a bitch? and he'd show me.
Fine.
Leave me alone.
My instincts were correct. A few weeks later, once I started taking the more sane 7:48 train (my boss didn't care when I got to work or left as long as I did my job), a man asked if he could sit across from me (the coach was almost full). I couldn't stop him, so I shrugged and went back to my book. He didn't need to ask. It was an empty seat. But all cons start with a question that demands a "yes" answer. "May I ask you a question?" is about the first thing any panhandler asks you. Just say "no" and keep walking is my advice.
He asked if I would move my newspaper, which was spread on the table between us. Then he removed a thermos from his backpack (he was in a suit) and a pack of instant oatmeal. "I eat my breakfast on the train," he confided in me.
Really? Do tell. I kept reading. Did I look interested?
He ate. Then he pulled out a ziplock bag full of potions and concoctions. And started to tell me exactly what each pill did. And how he lived with his mother.
What do you say to someone like that? What do you say to get him to shut the heck up because there is not another empty seat and you can't move? You just have to get over the dread of being thought Rude and Be Rude. You can justify your Rudeness by telling yourself that Vitamin Oatmeal Man is also being rude by presuming to talk to you while you keep POINTEDLY RETURNING TO YOUR NEWSPAPER after each, "Um-hmm."
So yeah. I avoided VOM after that.
And then there was the airline baggage handler guy with the wandering eye. Not that his wandering eye was his fault, but it did make him seem creepy. He was always staring at the women. Well, part of him was staring and part of him was looking elsewhere.
But there was Kip, the nice guy. He was cute and I watched him. He got on the train at Ft Lauderdale and got off at West Boca. I'll tell you about him next time. I wasted too much space on the weird people today.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
In which my gaydar is activated
At book club last night, we talked about Assisted Loving: Double Dating with My Dad, or something like that, a memoir by Bob Morris, who is a writer for the New York Times (a newspaper out of New York City).
A few of us knew right away at the beginning of the book that Bob was gay, but some of the other readers did not.
Why was this?
Because some of us have either dated gay men or had crushes on them or both, hence, our gaydar has become highly refined. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, etc.
And some of us had married our high-school boyfriends, so never had reason to be amazed years or weeks later that our boyfriend/crush was gay. Gaydar not such a factor in those cases. It must be developed and who needs gaydar if she is already involved?
In the defense of all women who have dated gay men and not known they were gay - if a guy is trying to pass, he can do it.* Or maybe he doesn't even know. But if you have dated a guy (as a college student or as an adult) for more than a few months and he hasn't tried to get into your pants, that is your first big clue.
Straight men want it with the women they date. They want it with their friends, even, because in most cases, a single, straight guy is not going to waste time being "just friends" with a woman unless he thinks that someday, they will be more than friends.
You don't believe me?
Ask your brother, your boyfriend, your husband how many good women friends they had - as in, spent a lot of time with - as single men where they did not have an ulterior motive.
That's not to say that men and women can't be friends, but unattached men have a keen sense of the ROI for sex/time.
Anyhow.
My gaydar had been developed by
1. Learning that my short-term high school boyfriend who kissed me only once and told me I tasted like macaroni had come out, but only after he had become a pilot in the air force and gotten married (and divorced). So like I was supposed to figure it out when I was 16 and he was either unaware or fighting it tooth and nail? I barely knew what gay was. This was in the late '70s when high school students were not plugged in like they are now.
2. Having several very out gay friends in the Peace Corps. Nothing like talking to men about men. It's fun. You learn good stuff.
3. Having a major crush on Liam, my good friend from work who had a "girlfriend" so he would fit into the world of corporate finance. He came out to me, then to his parents (who were mean to him about it, I am sad to say), and then got a new job where he asked in the interview about how gay-friendly the company was because he didn't want to work any more in an environment where he could not be himself.
OK. Back to the gaydar incident. My friend Liz and I went to a returned Peace Corps volunteer party in Miami. Those parties were something else. People there really cared about who was on the RPCV board and who had power and what Good We Can Do In The Community.
In the RPCV group my friends Megan and Leigh and I started in Springfield, I was elected president because I made the mistake of going to the bathroom right before the nominations and voting. We didn't care about The Community; we started the group as a way to meet men and to have parties.
There was that one woman who insisted we Do Something for The Community. I had finally learned the management skill of bouncing back, which is when you say, "Fab idea, Melissa! Why don't you be in charge of that?"
Much to my (not) surprise, Melissa never did a thing. Indeed, four months later she called me to say that she was pregnant and couldn't be involved, tempting me to ask why she couldn't use her brain and her uterus at the same time, but I resisted.
Liz and I were at this party, talking to a cute, interesting guy, Tim, by the pool. Liz, who is pretty and athletic and trim and smart and interesting and fun, was not dating anyone, which just seemed inexplicable to me because I would have dated her if I were a guy. But we both worked really long hours and it's not like the guys we worked with were worth pursuing or if they were, they were gay. [See: Liam]
When were we supposed to meet men otherwise?
We left the party and started to deconstruct it in the car.
"Tim is cute!" she said. "He's fun!"
I agreed.
She said she would like to go out with him.
"But Liz!" I exclaimed. "He's gay!"
Her head jerked back. "What do you mean?" she asked.
"He's gay! You couldn't tell?"
"No. What makes you think he's gay?"
"Because when we were talking about what countries we wanted to visit, after he told us his top three, he turned to you and asked what you thought. Then he listened."
"So?"
"When is the last time a straight man asked you what you thought about anything? Besides your dad, I mean?"
She thought about it. "That doesn't mean he's gay," she insisted.
"It's a good clue. And then there was this: remember when we were talking about Al Gore?"
"Yes. So?"
"He said that he wanted Gore to spank him."
Game. Set. Match.
* See "gay American" former governor McGreevey of New Jersey. His wife looked stunned at the announcement and why shouldn't she have? They have a daughter together! Maybe she was in on it all along, but McGreevey had a lot of motivation to keep things on the down low. BTW, McGreevey, most people probably didn't care that you are gay, but they did care that you hired your foreign lover for a high security level job with New Jersey taxpayer money.
A few of us knew right away at the beginning of the book that Bob was gay, but some of the other readers did not.
Why was this?
Because some of us have either dated gay men or had crushes on them or both, hence, our gaydar has become highly refined. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, etc.
And some of us had married our high-school boyfriends, so never had reason to be amazed years or weeks later that our boyfriend/crush was gay. Gaydar not such a factor in those cases. It must be developed and who needs gaydar if she is already involved?
In the defense of all women who have dated gay men and not known they were gay - if a guy is trying to pass, he can do it.* Or maybe he doesn't even know. But if you have dated a guy (as a college student or as an adult) for more than a few months and he hasn't tried to get into your pants, that is your first big clue.
Straight men want it with the women they date. They want it with their friends, even, because in most cases, a single, straight guy is not going to waste time being "just friends" with a woman unless he thinks that someday, they will be more than friends.
You don't believe me?
Ask your brother, your boyfriend, your husband how many good women friends they had - as in, spent a lot of time with - as single men where they did not have an ulterior motive.
That's not to say that men and women can't be friends, but unattached men have a keen sense of the ROI for sex/time.
Anyhow.
My gaydar had been developed by
1. Learning that my short-term high school boyfriend who kissed me only once and told me I tasted like macaroni had come out, but only after he had become a pilot in the air force and gotten married (and divorced). So like I was supposed to figure it out when I was 16 and he was either unaware or fighting it tooth and nail? I barely knew what gay was. This was in the late '70s when high school students were not plugged in like they are now.
2. Having several very out gay friends in the Peace Corps. Nothing like talking to men about men. It's fun. You learn good stuff.
3. Having a major crush on Liam, my good friend from work who had a "girlfriend" so he would fit into the world of corporate finance. He came out to me, then to his parents (who were mean to him about it, I am sad to say), and then got a new job where he asked in the interview about how gay-friendly the company was because he didn't want to work any more in an environment where he could not be himself.
OK. Back to the gaydar incident. My friend Liz and I went to a returned Peace Corps volunteer party in Miami. Those parties were something else. People there really cared about who was on the RPCV board and who had power and what Good We Can Do In The Community.
In the RPCV group my friends Megan and Leigh and I started in Springfield, I was elected president because I made the mistake of going to the bathroom right before the nominations and voting. We didn't care about The Community; we started the group as a way to meet men and to have parties.
There was that one woman who insisted we Do Something for The Community. I had finally learned the management skill of bouncing back, which is when you say, "Fab idea, Melissa! Why don't you be in charge of that?"
Much to my (not) surprise, Melissa never did a thing. Indeed, four months later she called me to say that she was pregnant and couldn't be involved, tempting me to ask why she couldn't use her brain and her uterus at the same time, but I resisted.
Liz and I were at this party, talking to a cute, interesting guy, Tim, by the pool. Liz, who is pretty and athletic and trim and smart and interesting and fun, was not dating anyone, which just seemed inexplicable to me because I would have dated her if I were a guy. But we both worked really long hours and it's not like the guys we worked with were worth pursuing or if they were, they were gay. [See: Liam]
When were we supposed to meet men otherwise?
We left the party and started to deconstruct it in the car.
"Tim is cute!" she said. "He's fun!"
I agreed.
She said she would like to go out with him.
"But Liz!" I exclaimed. "He's gay!"
Her head jerked back. "What do you mean?" she asked.
"He's gay! You couldn't tell?"
"No. What makes you think he's gay?"
"Because when we were talking about what countries we wanted to visit, after he told us his top three, he turned to you and asked what you thought. Then he listened."
"So?"
"When is the last time a straight man asked you what you thought about anything? Besides your dad, I mean?"
She thought about it. "That doesn't mean he's gay," she insisted.
"It's a good clue. And then there was this: remember when we were talking about Al Gore?"
"Yes. So?"
"He said that he wanted Gore to spank him."
Game. Set. Match.
* See "gay American" former governor McGreevey of New Jersey. His wife looked stunned at the announcement and why shouldn't she have? They have a daughter together! Maybe she was in on it all along, but McGreevey had a lot of motivation to keep things on the down low. BTW, McGreevey, most people probably didn't care that you are gay, but they did care that you hired your foreign lover for a high security level job with New Jersey taxpayer money.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
In which I slave to find the perfect gift for my French self-proclaimed millionaire but miserly boyfriend and get only an e-card for my birthday
Remember Yves, the French boyfriend who claimed to be a millionaire but lived in spartan, washing his clothes in the sink, miserliness? He also implied darkly that he had been a spy and had had some run-ins with the Russians when I asked him about what appeared to be cigarette burns on his arm. Then there was the hereditary English title of which his family had unjustly been dispossessed.
Whatever. I just rolled my eyes when he went on about this stuff. Like, I'm an American. I couldn't care less about hereditary titles. As in, England might want a queen but I would never bow to her because I AM AN AMERICAN and WE BOW TO NOBODY.
Plus if he was so rich, why didn't he have a washing machine? And a full-sized refrigerator? I know it's France and they are so superior and all, but my idea of superior leisurely living does not include washing my clothes by hand. I had enough of that when I was in the Peace Corps.
Still, he was interesting to talk to and there was a certain glamor (and convenience) to having an overseas boyfriend. Although I should have learned my lesson with him and not made the Gomez mistake. For dumb.
After meeting at work and dating for a few months, we had decided to be "just friends" after coming to the conclusion that this intercontinental dating wasn't really going to work. Then we decided that as "just friends," it might be fun to take a trip together to the south of France. We would split the expenses as "just friends" and he would do all the driving and hotel finding and speaking to the locals, as my French is abysmal. A French teacher once told me in exasperation that I spoke French "like a Spaniard," which is undoubtedly true, as Spanish is my first foreign language. I started learning it when I was six and my brain knows two accents: American and Spanish. Those are the accents I apply to every other language, including French, Italian and Portuguese.
I was to fly to Marseilles and meet Yves there. His birthday happened to fall during our trip. I wanted to get him something special. I knew he liked American bourbon - he had even toured Kentucky visiting distilleries.
I researched bourbon, about which I knew nothing. It's booze, right? You use it in Bourbon Balls at Christmas?
I learned that there are boutique bourbons, single malt bourbons, snob bourbons. I learned how they were rated.
I emailed one of Yves' colleagues, whom I had also met through work. What bourbons could one buy in France? I asked. I wanted to get something that Yves could not get through his regular liquor channels.
Only the big names were available overseas, so I was safe with the snob brands.
Then I went to four different liquor stores in Miami before I found one that carried any of the snob brands. Yes, I would have tried calling beforehand, but if you have ever lived in Miami, you will understand why that would have been a stupid idea.
I spent $50 for the bottle. That was a lot of money to me back then. It had taken me a year and a half after the Peace Corps to find work and I had been working only two years. Before the Peace Corps, I was in grad school and I had a year (of temp work) between grad school and the Peace Corps, so I had had five years of barely breaking even, if that.
$50 for booze is too much for me now, as well, but then I don't drink. I'd rather spend that money on shoes. Or a purse.
I couldn't pack the bottle in my checked luggage - I was afraid it would break. Apparently, nobody thought I would try to get the entire plane drunk (ha - as if I would share something so expensive) and I was able to take it in my carry-on bag.
A bottle of bourbon, even the fancy bourbon, is not light. But I carried it across an ocean so I could have a nice gift for Yves.
He picked me up in Marseilles and we had a great trip, even deciding - ahem - to be more than "just friends," at least for the duration of the vacation.
We stayed at a small hotel on the water in Marseilles and were confused by the signs informing us that it was interdit to take non-guests into the room, but then we realized it was a sailors' flophouse and they wanted to keep the hookers out.
Our room was decorated in a jaunty nautical theme that included bunk beds instead of a double bed, but I suppose that would have been no impediment to a lonely sailor on shore leave.
The only rough spot on the trip was when I ran out of the pain meds for my tooth that needed pulling. My dentist refused to pull the tooth right before I left for France, telling me that such a procedure two days before an international trip was not wise. He did give me drugs.
He also asked if I was interested in meeting his single, employed brother. His mother, who ran his practice, and he had discussed this over my two years of being a patient and had thought we would be a good match.
I suggested that waiting until a week before I was moving from Miami to Iowa was not the best timing. Did I mention that? That I was moving from Miami to Cedar Rapids? Well, I was.
Anyhow, I ran out of drugs and my tooth started to hurt so much that I demanded that Yves find a hardware store, buy a wrench, and pull the tooth himself. He refused, but did call his doctor and get me a new prescription. At the time, I did not know codeine was available over the counter in France (it is! stock up when you are there!), otherwise I would have just stayed stoned until I got back to the States.
Back to the bourbon.
Yves loved it. Thought I was so thoughtful to go through all that effort. Of course I told him how much work it was. Wouldn't you?
I went back home, moved to Iowa, and we carried on our emailing relationship along with an occasional phone call. He even visited me in Iowa on a work trip to the States. He did not, however, impress me by deciding to fly back to France out of Chicago instead of Cedar Rapids as we had originally planned.
"I thought you could drive me to Chicago to catch the plane," he explained.
I explained to him that Chicago was over 200 miles away - that just because something is only one inch away on the US map does not mean it is a quick drive. But he didn't care. He didn't want the more expensive ticket (that the company was paying for) - but he was OK with my putting 400 miles on my car and my paying for the gas.
What can I say? This is the same man who drove to Cedar Rapids from Memphis against my advice. "It's a boring, boring drive," I told him, "and a long drive."
He didn't believe me until he got to Cedar Rapids. "It was hours of nothing but corn fields!" he exclaimed in disbelief.
"Yeah. I told you so," I answered.
After we broke up, I emailed him and told him I wanted the gas money.
But that was later. Yves went back to France. I continued to work. As my birthday approached, Yves got excited. Oh, the special thing he had planned for me! It was tres cool! I would like it SOOOO much! He could hardly stand it!
I was intrigued. What could he be getting me that was the equivalent of $50 boutique bourbon? Did he really know me that well? I couldn't wait, either.
My birthday arrived.
Nothing in the mail. Nothing delivered to work. I waited. I waited.
I checked my email.
There it was.
An e-card.
An E-CARD.
That was the special birthday present he had arranged for me.
Two days later, he broke up with me.
Know what?
I didn't care.
Whatever. I just rolled my eyes when he went on about this stuff. Like, I'm an American. I couldn't care less about hereditary titles. As in, England might want a queen but I would never bow to her because I AM AN AMERICAN and WE BOW TO NOBODY.
Plus if he was so rich, why didn't he have a washing machine? And a full-sized refrigerator? I know it's France and they are so superior and all, but my idea of superior leisurely living does not include washing my clothes by hand. I had enough of that when I was in the Peace Corps.
Still, he was interesting to talk to and there was a certain glamor (and convenience) to having an overseas boyfriend. Although I should have learned my lesson with him and not made the Gomez mistake. For dumb.
After meeting at work and dating for a few months, we had decided to be "just friends" after coming to the conclusion that this intercontinental dating wasn't really going to work. Then we decided that as "just friends," it might be fun to take a trip together to the south of France. We would split the expenses as "just friends" and he would do all the driving and hotel finding and speaking to the locals, as my French is abysmal. A French teacher once told me in exasperation that I spoke French "like a Spaniard," which is undoubtedly true, as Spanish is my first foreign language. I started learning it when I was six and my brain knows two accents: American and Spanish. Those are the accents I apply to every other language, including French, Italian and Portuguese.
I was to fly to Marseilles and meet Yves there. His birthday happened to fall during our trip. I wanted to get him something special. I knew he liked American bourbon - he had even toured Kentucky visiting distilleries.
I researched bourbon, about which I knew nothing. It's booze, right? You use it in Bourbon Balls at Christmas?
I learned that there are boutique bourbons, single malt bourbons, snob bourbons. I learned how they were rated.
I emailed one of Yves' colleagues, whom I had also met through work. What bourbons could one buy in France? I asked. I wanted to get something that Yves could not get through his regular liquor channels.
Only the big names were available overseas, so I was safe with the snob brands.
Then I went to four different liquor stores in Miami before I found one that carried any of the snob brands. Yes, I would have tried calling beforehand, but if you have ever lived in Miami, you will understand why that would have been a stupid idea.
I spent $50 for the bottle. That was a lot of money to me back then. It had taken me a year and a half after the Peace Corps to find work and I had been working only two years. Before the Peace Corps, I was in grad school and I had a year (of temp work) between grad school and the Peace Corps, so I had had five years of barely breaking even, if that.
$50 for booze is too much for me now, as well, but then I don't drink. I'd rather spend that money on shoes. Or a purse.
I couldn't pack the bottle in my checked luggage - I was afraid it would break. Apparently, nobody thought I would try to get the entire plane drunk (ha - as if I would share something so expensive) and I was able to take it in my carry-on bag.
A bottle of bourbon, even the fancy bourbon, is not light. But I carried it across an ocean so I could have a nice gift for Yves.
He picked me up in Marseilles and we had a great trip, even deciding - ahem - to be more than "just friends," at least for the duration of the vacation.
We stayed at a small hotel on the water in Marseilles and were confused by the signs informing us that it was interdit to take non-guests into the room, but then we realized it was a sailors' flophouse and they wanted to keep the hookers out.
Our room was decorated in a jaunty nautical theme that included bunk beds instead of a double bed, but I suppose that would have been no impediment to a lonely sailor on shore leave.
The only rough spot on the trip was when I ran out of the pain meds for my tooth that needed pulling. My dentist refused to pull the tooth right before I left for France, telling me that such a procedure two days before an international trip was not wise. He did give me drugs.
He also asked if I was interested in meeting his single, employed brother. His mother, who ran his practice, and he had discussed this over my two years of being a patient and had thought we would be a good match.
I suggested that waiting until a week before I was moving from Miami to Iowa was not the best timing. Did I mention that? That I was moving from Miami to Cedar Rapids? Well, I was.
Anyhow, I ran out of drugs and my tooth started to hurt so much that I demanded that Yves find a hardware store, buy a wrench, and pull the tooth himself. He refused, but did call his doctor and get me a new prescription. At the time, I did not know codeine was available over the counter in France (it is! stock up when you are there!), otherwise I would have just stayed stoned until I got back to the States.
Back to the bourbon.
Yves loved it. Thought I was so thoughtful to go through all that effort. Of course I told him how much work it was. Wouldn't you?
I went back home, moved to Iowa, and we carried on our emailing relationship along with an occasional phone call. He even visited me in Iowa on a work trip to the States. He did not, however, impress me by deciding to fly back to France out of Chicago instead of Cedar Rapids as we had originally planned.
"I thought you could drive me to Chicago to catch the plane," he explained.
I explained to him that Chicago was over 200 miles away - that just because something is only one inch away on the US map does not mean it is a quick drive. But he didn't care. He didn't want the more expensive ticket (that the company was paying for) - but he was OK with my putting 400 miles on my car and my paying for the gas.
What can I say? This is the same man who drove to Cedar Rapids from Memphis against my advice. "It's a boring, boring drive," I told him, "and a long drive."
He didn't believe me until he got to Cedar Rapids. "It was hours of nothing but corn fields!" he exclaimed in disbelief.
"Yeah. I told you so," I answered.
After we broke up, I emailed him and told him I wanted the gas money.
But that was later. Yves went back to France. I continued to work. As my birthday approached, Yves got excited. Oh, the special thing he had planned for me! It was tres cool! I would like it SOOOO much! He could hardly stand it!
I was intrigued. What could he be getting me that was the equivalent of $50 boutique bourbon? Did he really know me that well? I couldn't wait, either.
My birthday arrived.
Nothing in the mail. Nothing delivered to work. I waited. I waited.
I checked my email.
There it was.
An e-card.
An E-CARD.
That was the special birthday present he had arranged for me.
Two days later, he broke up with me.
Know what?
I didn't care.
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